Saturday, September 27, 20082:04 PM
Moooos.
Hiiash.
Breaking up isn't really
fun at all is it...?
It really sucks a lot.
I feel like crying whenever
I think about Liang or his blog.
It hurts.
I am really just a fool that is
still in love with Liang.
My boat has sunk.
-sighs-
I lost my everything yesterday
afternoon.
I can't study.
I can't eat properly.
I feel like vomiting all the time.
-sighs-
His feelings faded.
My feelings are still so strong.
Stronger actually.
It gets stronger all the time.
Now at least, he can be happy with
the girl he loves.
He was never happy when he was with me.
I hope a girl can make him happy.
It seems that all the time I pray
for Liang's and my relationship
to get better.
It never does.
You know why...?
It's because of me.
I am such a freak.
An assholic freak.
He has been and will always be
my everything.
Yesterday.
I..
-sighs-
I punched the walls of my house.
My knuckles hurt now.
I can't write properly.
I can't type properly either.
-sighs-
I slit the left upper arm.
I wanted to slit my right upper arm
but then, there was this vein there.
So yeah.
I didn't want to jump to anything rash.
L-O-L~
Hahas.
Weirdo =.="
Wow.
-sighs-
There will some random rants below.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~RAWR~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
There's this girl.
She thinks she is a jinx.
Whoever she fell in love with her,
their relationships always failed.
Okay, maybe not a jinx.
But maybe, it's her fault.
It has always been her fault.
She always threatened to slit.
And she did.
But.
All he did was scold her.
That's all.
One day, she lost her everything.
He broke up with her.
She lost her everything.
She cried so hard.
Her heart hurt so badly.
She hurt herself.
She placed her penknife, once again,
on her neck and screamed in sorrow.
She just couldn't fucking do it.
It's because of him she was holding back.
She missed him so much.
She begged for chances but he..
Refused.
She cried.
She just took her penknife and slit
her arm.
She didn't even bother to clean the blood
off.
Nah, heck care for it.
It doesn't matter anymore.
She felt so weak.
Love has made her such a weakling.
She missed him.
All she had of him was that present.
This little plushie which she loves
so much.
She will never let it go.
Because it's so close to her heart,
even though she had just only received it
from him two days before the break up.
-sighs-
She really needed him so badly.
When she talked to him recently..
He acted as if nothing happened.
She's happy for him.
For moving on.
But for her.
To her. It doesn't matter.
Whether she is hurting or not.
What matters is his happiness.
She didn't care about her studies right now.
She didn't care about her examinations.
She didn't care about herself at all now.
Only him.
"Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder"
These words are for him.
And only for him.
No one else.
These words kept running through
her head.
-sighs-
She is losing everything.
Wait, she HAS LOST everything.
He is her everything.
Will always be.
Well.
Her life has ended when her
relationship with him ended.
She has nothing left to live for.
Nothing. Absolutely nothing.
~~~~~~~~~MOOO~~~~~~~~~
That's all.
Bye.
