Friday, September 19, 20089:18 PM
Mrowr(=
Well.
I haven't received any
tags from anybody )=
I really want Liang to tag
my blog )=
I miss you, Liang )=
Gosh.
Rawr~ )=
-sighs-
You rather tag her blog,
you rather reply her tags,
I mean.
You don't even tag my blog.
You don't even reply my tags.
-sighs-
I don't even know you read my
stupid blog.
-sighs-
Hmmmms.
I really wanted to slit my wrist
there and then.
On that spot.
In that playground.
But I was lucky.
Wan and Sheri.
They were there to stop me.
I wanted to cry.
I wonder why.
And I have found what I have
been wondering for, for the
past month.
Why...?
Why don't you like talking to
me, Liang..?
I found out.
2 words.
I suck.
That's all.
I suck.
I am not good enough.
That's all.
I read my friend's blog.
She talked about a suicidal note.
And I thinking about it.
I am so tempted.
I still remember that night.
So clearly.
I placed my penknife on my neck.
Thinking, contemplating whether
to slit or not.
I didn't
I STOP MYSELF,
for YOU.
I thought of you.
You are always my mind.
Once you entered my mind in June holidays.
You have NEVER left it.
It's a good thing.
Because, I love you.
With my heart and soul.
Because, I love you, Liang.
-sighs-
I am going to cry.
You said you wanted to care more
about me.
And, your way is to ignore my SMSes.
Not talk to me.
Those are your ways of showing care isn't it.?
-sighs-
If you think your hand phone bill is high.
You should see mine.
But I am not putting any blame on anybody (=
Hmmmm.
-sighs-
I really love you Liang.
-sighs-
~~~~~~Random nonsense~~~~~~
She waits on him.
Waits for his replies,
his calls.
But they never ever come.
Night to night, she cries herself
to sleep.
Because every night,
She cannot sleep.
She thinks about him every night.
She waits on him.
She places her phone next to her head.
On her pillow.
Her pillow was drenched with her tears.
All that could be heard in her room
were her sobbing.
He, on the other hand,
Was on the line,
Happily chatting with another girl.
Laughing, giggling and chatting.
She cries every time she think
of him.
She loves him so much.
Her heart.
It can't break further.
This girl.
Is.
-sighs-
Yeah
Rants.
Sorry.
