Sunshine of Your Love;

Friday, September 5, 20089:55 AM

Good Morning... (:
Hahaahahs.
Hmmmmm.
-sighs-
Just some stupid rantings.
Hmmmmmz.

To the person that I love tons:
She cares so much more.
Because she knows more.
Because you tell her more.
I don't even know what's going on.
-sighs-
It's quite unfair.
You tell her everything while I am
left in the dark.
It is quite unfair.
I want to care for you but how can
I when I don't know what's
happening to you...?
I care about you a lot but I wanna
care more, but...
Never mind.
It doesn't matter.
As long you see that she can care
for you more.
Unlike me, I am useless.
I am selfish.
You said it yourself.
I am selfish.
-sighs-
I want to change but I can't.
Because, I don't have your
support.
You said you would leave me
when I break the promise
again and would not care
about me anymore.
It's not fair.
-sighs-
I will be there for you no matter
what you do.
Because I really care and love you.
But if that's the way you see it then
I am sorry.
Because, I don't know whether I will
break my promise or not.
-sighs-
I really have a heavy heart.
If we talked it out you would
definitely say things like
"What's wrong with you..?"
"You only think about yourself..."
Those kind of things, so I want to keep
what's in my heart inside it.
I don't know how to put it.
I wish you would still support me no
matter what I do or say.
-sighs-
That's all I wish for.
All I wish for is for you stand by me,
support me and still care and love me
no matter what I do or say.
But, your mind has already been made.
You won't..
That's why my heart ache when I think
about this.
I feel like crying every time I remember
your words.
I know it hurts you too, but, if it hurts you
too, don't you want to help stop the
hurting too...?
Unless you think that leaving me will stop
the hurting then I guess, you are right.
-sighs-
I cannot do anything.
I cannot beg, I cannot scream, I cannot shout
I cannot talk to you anymore.
It kills me when these things pop up to
me because these things will happen when
you leave me or stop loving me.
I cannot do anything about it.
-sighs-
I want to be with you forever but...
It's my behavior that puts a barrier.
It really hurts so much...
I wish this hurting for you would go away.
I don't care about myself.
I would do anything for you.
I want the hurting you are going through,
emotionally and physically, to just stop.
I want to have that power to take all your
pain away.
Really, I do.
I don't care whether my hurting and pain
stop because, I am not that important.
I just want the hurting for you to stop.
That's all.
I want you to be truly happy.
But only with her, then maybe you can be
truly happy.
I feel so useless.
Because I don't know what to do.
Because whatever I say or do, you don't seem
to want to listen to it or reciprocate it.
You would only listen to her of course,
not me, but her.
I can't tag your blog anymore.
I promised not to.
Not being able to tag your blog is like,
leaving the world or something.
It feels like that.
-sighs-
I don't even know whether you
read my postings.
Because whenever I ask you to see
them you would never say anything
about them.
You don't even tag my blog.
It's only to... Never mind
I won't say it.
You tagged my blog,
just scolding people.
But you don't tag towards me.
-sighs-
It makes me so depressed.
I can't think straight.
I really can't think straight.
It hurts so much.
I have never been like this in
my life before.
The aching in my heart has
never been so great before.
But, I don't mind it, because
I love you...
I love you, that's why I would
go through anything for you.
I promise you that.
I will be there for you forever.
No matter rain or shine.
Because I really really love you
with all my heart and soul.

To my kor:
Hey, don't worry too much >.<>_<"
<3333333
Alright, love you kor<3

Hmmmmm,
What else.
Let's seee.
Oh well, nothing else (:

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;Until the End