Tuesday, September 30, 20082:09 PM
-sighs-
I should just die now.
Then every body will be
happy.
I mean, Liang doesn't fucking
care anymore.
No one knows I how I feel,
honestly.
I almost cried in school
today. AGAIN.
Almost.
Right now.
I feel like telling Christina.
You hate me so much right...?
Come to my school.
After school. I let you
beat me up until you very
happy.
Okay...?
I won't even fight back.
Because I have nothing
to live for anymore.
I don't give a fuck about
myself anymore.
I curse myself every night.
I even beat myself up by
punching myself.
I deserve it.
I really fucking deserve it.
It's demented, but who fucking
cares...?
Certainly not Liang.
-sighs-
Fuck, he doesn't even tag my blog.
Wait, he doesn't even fucking view
my fucking blog.
Sorry, I am really upset.
It's as if, I'm an outcast.
Oh wait, I am one.
I am a fucking outcast.
-sighs-
I slashed my two upper arms.
I slashed my left part of
my chest.
It doesn't hurt.
Not one bit.
Why...? Because I don't give
a fuck about myself anymore.
I think about Liang.
Every hour.
Every minute.
Every single fucking second.
But it doesn't matter.
I am the one hurting.
Not him.
So I don't give a fuck about
me getting hurt anymore.
I emo-ed the whole day.
Yippee.
So fun.
Hiiash.
Tomorrow's another fucking
day.
Whopptteeedooo.
My friends kept saying,
Liang doesn't deserve you.
No, they are wrong.
I don't deserve Liang.
I don't deserve Love.
I don't deserve anything that's
got to do with happiness and love.
Nope. I am unworthy.
Yeap.
I torture myself.
Every day. Because. I. Don't.
Give. A. Damn. Anymore.
Honestly.
-sighs-
What's the point..?
Every guy I loved, well, their
feelings faded. It's my fault.
Like my blogskin,
I'm:-
Good for nothing.
Retard.
Worthless.
In the way.
Yeah, I'm all that fucking things.
I agree.
I am all that.
That's why I don't deserve anything.
And, I have officially quit Audition.
Because, Liang is there.
And his couple is there.
And I am unworthy to spend time with Liang.
So yeah.
I don't want to spoil Liang's happiness with
that girl.
Because I suck, and people hate me.
And I ruin people's days.
I give people headaches. Liang said it
himself. I gave him headaches.
I agree.
Because, I am a fucking bitch.
DUH.
I hate myself so fucking much right now.
I don't deserve to live. Honestly.
I bet many people are glad/overjoyed/happy
/ecstatic/too fucking glad that Liang
doesn't love me anymore.
WHEEE! I know you people are happy.
At least there are people who are happy
with break ups, but they never think
about those involved in the damn break up.
I feel like stabbing myself now.
I know this is a real harsh post.
Violent and harsh.
I'm sorry.
But yeah. It's my blog.
So yeah.
-sighs-
I'm not worth Liang's time at all.
So, now, if you excuse me, I need
to continue with my torture. Thanks
Bye!~
