Sunshine of Your Love;

Saturday, October 11, 20088:21 PM

WHEEEE~ Had tons of fun today =D
Well, not at first but WOAH~
Everything flipped 180 degrees =DD
At about 1pm something, I think ><
Sheri, Roy, Fiona and I were waiting
for Brian and Liang. -sighs-
When I saw Liang. God.
I really really saw an Angel ><
It sounds cheesy and all that.
But it's the truth ><><
His smile. His eyes. ><>
I was actually hurting and aching.
So badly. I didn't say "Hi" or anything.
The only contact I made with
Brian and Liang was passing them
GuyLian chocolates from the Candy Empire
^^ But whatever they did with the
chocolates were their business ><
But the chocolates were from my heart (=
Everybody knew (I think) how I was feeling.
But yeah. Then we waited for a few more minutes for Jessie. (=
Went to some Japanese restaurant for lunch (=
Roy and Jessie didn't eat -____-
Oh what the heck. Hahahas. But yeahs.
Fiona and I were rushing to sit next to Jessie,
because well, there was on seat in between Liang and Roy, s
o I GENEROUSLY offered Fiona to sit there
but she just stole my seat. But yeah.
I was about to pull my seat and
sit in between the two guys when Roy sat there,
giving his seat up to me. ><><><>
Then I found out it was Sheri's idea. I think. (=
Thanks ^^ Because I wasn't all that excited
about sitting there. I will feel more emo. ><
But yeah. So I sat across from SmellGood (=
I was like staring at him blankly then he just "..."
Hahahas. ><>
Green tea was being served, so heh.
Jessie added like Wasabi to her Green Tea for fun ><
Then suddenly Anything on the table
which could fit into the cup was being added.
SmellGood added like toothpicks -.-"
I was like "ADD GINGER, ADD SOY SAUCE" =D
hahas Then I realized, we were going to get into trouble
if the waitresses found out what we were doing
><>
doing stupid shit, please let me finish eating (="
Then like Roy was like chuckling to himself.
Then he and I started giving lame excuses like,
he was like one of his relatives were in labor.
Then I was like "Oh! My father's in labor"
Sorry GOTTA GO. LOL~
Roy and I were pretending to chiong out ><
Hahahas. Really fun ^^ after all that.
We just kinda separated from Brian and Liang.
I just felt the pain slowly seep away from my heart.
But I missed him. I really did. Just that.
I kept telling myself I didn't care but.
I actually did. God, I really cared so much.
But I just couldn't face you. Because I'm scared.
I don't know what you think of me now.
I'm so afraid. Well, onto the day's events.
Hmmms. Then we went walking about.
Walked around the Fountain of Wealth.
I didn't go, because I didn't have anything to wish for.
But even if I did, and if that wish was for me.
It will never come true because that wish depends of you.
Roy didn't walk either, he was SMS-ing -_-
Lol~ Sheri, Fiona and SmellGood walked ^^
they were laughing and all that.
I was really glad to see them like that. (=
Then we went to Toys R Us,
SmellGood was like OMG <3333>
It was really hilarious. But we were really hyper in there.
Having a good time there (=
Yeahhhh. Then, I think things went quite downhill from there.
But those things are personal. So can't share it, SORRY~
Hmmmmm, then after those personal thoughts
and all that, Sheri, Fiona, SmellGood, Roy and I
went to watch "The House Bunny"
God, That movie's so p0rno and h0rny ><
But it was hilarious ^^ =DDD So yeahs.
I was quite emo during the movie,
but about 45 minutes through,
I loosened up. Hahahahas. Well.
Then we went walking about =D It was fun =DDDD
We thought we were walking to Marina Square,
but ended up we weren't so we asked
some random dude. And he told us a bunch of directions.
Then Roy was like
"Marina Square..? I know how to go there. Why never ask earlier..?"
Fiona and I were like O.O WHAT! Lol.
Then when Sheri and SmellGood heard about it,
they were dumbfounded.
Roy's reason = We didn't ask him. -.- LOL~
But never mind, it was a fun time walking to Marina Square
which we ended up not going
because it was REALLY LATE, about 6 already ><
So yeah. Roy and I were teasing SmellGood and Sheri =D
Hehe. Sheri was glaring daggers at us ><><
Then Roy and I were like "IT'S THE PEOPLE BEHIND"
=D LOL!~ BULLSHIT XDXD hahahas.
We just walked and walked. OH OH OH~
I managed to touch Roy's hair =D *Thumbs up*
=DDDDDDD Sweetness =D LOL~ But anyways.
In the MRT, Sheri and I were messing with Roy's hair
and stuff XDXD Hahahas, it was super fun =D
Then Roy had to alight.
We said our byes and promised each other
to meet up and do this kind of thing again =D ^^
Then it only left Fiona, Sheri and I in the MRT.
SmellGood had to take some other MRT line. I think ><
Lol~ Sorry. Yeah. Got down at Bedok MRT Station.
Said bye to Fiona and all that. I went home with Sheri
since she stays opposite me ^^ =D So yeah. Got home.
did stuff and yeah had dinner. Emo-ed for a while.
Because. -sighs- I think EVERY SOUL knows why.
~~~~~~

I miss you so much. I wanted to cry.
I mean, when I saw you.
Your smile. Your eyes. You are so
damn perfect in my eyes.
People say, somethings in life,
You want them so damn much.
But you just cannot have them. And
I feel this way. I can't have you Liang.
I want to but I can't. I just can't
I feel so damn weak and useless.
I can't. I really really can't do this anymore.
When I can't sleep at night. I always hold
your present close to my chest, close to my
heart. And I will think of you. Picturing
you smiling, laughing and just talking.
It's so perfect. And I start to cry.
Thinking, "where the hell did I go wrong...?"
It's my fault. I know. I'm so sorry.
I wish... Oh what the heck.
It will never come true, damn it.
-sighs- People say you are not worth it.
You are not that good in every aspect.
But to me, my darling dear.
You are perfect. So damn perfect.
Maybe that's why I can't have you.
You are the beauty and I am the beast,
but in this story, the beauty will never
love the beast. You are so damn perfect.
I'm so down below. ><>
deserve any thing from you.
I actually wanted to return your present
but then that's the only thing that I have.
And I cherish it so much. I wanted to buy
you a necklace for you. It was so pretty.
It reminded me of you on first sight.
But I didn't buy it. Because I know.
It's coming from the person who you don't
care about. You want it from her ><
I'm so sorry. I can't be her. I'm so damn
sorry. If only I have the courage.
But I don't need courage to tell you.
I think you know how I feel. Well.
I hope you do. )=
I'm so sorry for causing you so much
pain. But I really do love you a lot,
Liang

;Until the End