Tuesday, February 10, 20099:32 PM
fucking memories keep flashing back. it sickens me.
memories from last year. everything. i remember so vividly.
like it only just happened yesterday. i can still feel the tears.
i can still feel the pain. studying after the events for lasts year's eoys was not fun.
it sucks. and i don't know why i feel like this. it's petty.
it's stupid. and i feel really fucked up. i felt so fucking betrayed.
i felt so used. you made me feel so ugly. but. it doesn't matter.
i want to live for this moment. i want to live the present, not the fucking pasts.
i want to push them away. i want to forget them. but i just fucking can't.
it hurts so badly. but it's so difficult to get rid of these feelings.
i'm really going crazy. i don't know what to do. i wish he would talk to me.
imissyousomuchbylm): oh wells. i guess.
these people will never understand the things i do.
like loving you, holding onto you. yeah. to them,
it's ridiculous. but, i think it's worthwhile.
