Saturday, November 20, 20102:50 AM
It is not that easy when you think about it.
You think that it'll be an instant thing? Pssh.
Two words, Dream On.
I ain't being cruel, 'sides, doesn't that saying go:
You have to be cruel to be kind.
You mean a lot to me and that is why,
I ain't gonna help you one bit.
Because, I kinda know the outcome of this situation.
And I know this sounds selfish, but...
I am not gonna let myself get caught up between this.
No fucking way, thank you very much.
It ain't gonna be a garden of flowers that you're gonna run through.
It is gonna be difficult ; Like fighting through the levels of hell with a toothpick.
I am just gonna support you only if you need it.
I ain't gonna give you every thing on a silver platter.
I can't. I won't. I shouldn't.
Yeah, I am so sorry that I am being such a bitch.
But that is how things go for now.
The only words I have for are Good Luck.
Simple yet they do mean a lot.
It'll start out rocky but, if things go smoothly, then great.
I'll be happy. Overjoyed. :)
End of 1st part of my posting motive.
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I wanna spill my heart to you. Maybe I am selfish.
I want you to myself, I hate it when you talk to my brother.
Whether we are playing game together or just MSN-ing.
I hate it so much when you just ignore me.
It fucking kills me when you just push me away.
Push me into the dark and welcome others in.
It is so unfair. It is like I mean nothing.
I really wanna say that I don't care anymore.
But that is gonna be a lie.
An extremely sinful and big lie.
Because I fucking care a lot.
I know I don't love you but I do care about you.
I appreciate you like no other.
I really wish things could be different.
I wish you were here around.
Bye Beautiful People.
