Shhhhhhhh(:

2010-11-20T02:50:00.000+08:00

It is not that easy when you think about it.

You think that it'll be an instant thing? Pssh.

Two words, Dream On.

I ain't being cruel, 'sides, doesn't that saying go:

You have to be cruel to be kind.

You mean a lot to me and that is why,

I ain't gonna help you one bit.

Because, I kinda know the outcome of this situation.

And I know this sounds selfish, but...

I am not gonna let myself get caught up between this.

No fucking way, thank you very much.

It ain't gonna be a garden of flowers that you're gonna run through.

It is gonna be difficult ; Like fighting through the levels of hell with a toothpick.

I am just gonna support you only if you need it.

I ain't gonna give you every thing on a silver platter.

I can't. I won't. I shouldn't.

Yeah, I am so sorry that I am being such a bitch.

But that is how things go for now.

The only words I have for are Good Luck.

Simple yet they do mean a lot.

It'll start out rocky but, if things go smoothly, then great.

I'll be happy. Overjoyed. :)

End of 1st part of my posting motive.

I wanna spill my heart to you. Maybe I am selfish.

I want you to myself, I hate it when you talk to my brother.

Whether we are playing game together or just MSN-ing.

I hate it so much when you just ignore me.

It fucking kills me when you just push me away.

Push me into the dark and welcome others in.

It is so unfair. It is like I mean nothing.

I really wanna say that I don't care anymore.

But that is gonna be a lie.

An extremely sinful and big lie.

Because I fucking care a lot.

I know I don't love you but I do care about you.

I appreciate you like no other.

I really wish things could be different.

I wish you were here around.

Bye Beautiful People.

2010-10-08T21:07:00.008+08:00

Hi all :) Heehee.

I am bored out of my wits :)
So I am like blogging shit.
Ho ho ho ho.
O Levels are here in 2 weeks.
Fuck my life. :)
LOL.
I am gonna go study soon.

He doesn't look that bad, alright...? ):
Pretty sexy if you ask me.
If it's about the past,
I think Dante didn't want to accept his Demon roots.
Thus the hair colour.
I just hope that the game would make up for the "shock".
What game I would really love to see is,
DEFINITELY,
TOTALLY,
A game about VERGIL.
Yes, hell yes. I would love to see that sexy man.
But I hope he'll remain the way he is...
I love Vergil's personality. :)
So... Yeah. That'll be the shit.
Or they could go the MGS way,
Like they made a game of Big Boss :)
They should make one of Sparda.
DMC4 was a waste of time.
My brother sold his game LOL.
That's how bad...
He wants to sell Bayonetta as well.
Any buyers? :)
Lol. So yeah.
Dante could've turned out worse.
The makers have their own reasons for doing this I guess.
These changes makes more space for a story line.
A more mature outlook :)
Yeah. Don't criticize anymore.
ESPECIALLY YOU, RYANLOHJUNJIE -.-
Hahas.
Kays, see you around, beautiful people :)
XOXO

2010-10-04T16:25:00.005+08:00

OHMYGOD!
Yes, I am blogging. It is a miracle.
Like holy shit!?! Hahahas. Yes yes. Whatever.
Well, things have been on the bright side. :)
I can say that, right...?!
Unless some people decide to say that I got raped -.-
Yeah, bloody amazing, huh? LOL
I am so bored out of my wits. I need to study ):
Gosh.
I actually surrendered my SIM card and iPod Touch :O
HO HO HO.
*face palms*
I WILL SURVIVE, BITCHAS! :D
Damn, I am just gonna give a short update... But...
NO BODY READS MY BLOG ANYMORE LOL!
So, meh. I don't really careeeeeeeeee xD
<3XOXO

2010-06-10T17:55:00.003+08:00

Okay, I'm actually blogging :D Oh ho :D

Hahahas. So like, many things have happened.

Just gonna sum it up real quick.

Wait, firstly,

TODAY IS WAN'S BIRTHDAY.

SO HAPPY BIRTHDAY <3>

Okay, hahahas ._. I feel weird.

Honestly, I was happy like a minute ago.

Like really ecstatic, over the moon kinda thing.

Now, I feel like total crap that has shat out through a rotting anus.

Okay, that's how fucking bad I feel.

Okay whatever. I am sick and tired of feeling like this.

I feel like total complete trash.

Seriously. Anyways.

Great 2 weeks of my life :D

I mean, there was school and stuff.

But my friends are bloody amazing.

Like seriously.

Hanging out with them is totally epic :D

Watching movie with them,

talking about absolutely everything,

laughing at EVERYTHING and

of course, just their company = (Y)

Hahahas.

WHEEEE, TWO WEEKS OF FREEDOM!!! :D

WHOOOOOOOOOPEEEEEEEEEEEEE :D

Hahahahas.

I get to hang out with friends who actually appreciate me.

Unlike a certain fucker. :)

Hahahas. Anyways, that's about it :D

Bye Beautiful People ;)

"<3"

2010-05-13T20:05:00.002+08:00

EXAMINATIONS ARE OVER :D!

Bye! :D

2010-05-02T22:05:00.002+08:00

OMG!!

Am I really doing this?!

AM I ACTUALLY BLOGGING?!

LOL :D I am so bored. ):

Oh oh, it is the examinations period.

And I have problems studying.

Dear. God. Help. My. Fucking. Soul!

It is always like that!! *frustrated*

I was so fired up to study at the beginning of the year,

now I just can't bring myself to do so.

*hurls profanities*

So like, not much has actually happened.

I ♥ Glee ;) especially Mark Salling.

He plays Noah 'Puck' Puckerman <3

Hahahas.

I love Slash's new album. It kicks ass.

Seriously. :O hahahas.

I cannot wait for A7X's new album.

Gosh, it has been AGES ):

I seriously have no freaking idea what to blog.

I really don't want to blog my feelings either.

It's like too much to blog about.

Waste of time and useless LOL.

I just wanna get out of Secondary 4 life.

Seriously.

Can't wait to carry on to like JC or Poly.

I don't know why but

I still miss you very much.

It is like you took a piece away.

Sometimes I wanna scream.

I would feel angry at first,

then hurt,

then scared

and finally, I feel so lost.

Help me, I am drowning.

2010-03-23T21:21:00.003+08:00

Help meeeeeeee!!!! ): I'm hurting all over.

2010-03-23T21:21:00.001+08:00

Help meeeeeeee!!!! ): I'm hurting all over.

Hurt

2010-03-22T22:10:00.001+08:00

I guess the person
That you are in love with
Is always more important than the one
that has been there for you:-
Be it every second,
Every minute,
Every hour
Every day.
Or maybe every difficult period of
Your life.
I guess that's how much;
I really mean to you.

2010-03-21T20:24:00.001+08:00

I haven't updated in a long time. Oppps? Anyways, just giving a small update :o hahahas. Going back to school tomorrow, oh my goodness-.-! I've been hooked on Glee :D so friggin' awesome! I love that show :)! Always making me laugh and get my mind off some things :| hahas. Things haven't been totally fine with me :( and I don't want to let it show. Hahas. Oh well. Doesn't matter :D

Bye Beautiful People! (L)

2010-02-05T21:25:00.002+08:00

CONGRATULATIONS :D

omg, I am so proud of the debate team :D

Congrats on winning UNANIMOUSLY ♥

Congrats to Debos on getting

BEST SPEAKER :D ♥

Your hard work and effort paid off :D

Very good news :)

Well done, babes :D

Heehee! :D

You guys really deserve this victory :D!

♥

Okie dokie,

Shierly asked me to blog about her.

Hi Shierly :D

You finally know that I am on the Tamiflu.

:D Yay? HAHAHAHAS! :D

I ♥ Shierly :)

Bye Beautiful People

♥

2010-01-15T15:35:00.003+08:00

Ever felt like you've been used? ._.
Shit, I feel extremely used now.
Sighs. Like when people are bored
or in need of money, they come to me.
I am not an ATM or a fucking clown okay?
You think it is just money or a few minutes of
my time to entertain you but,
it is also my feelings for goodness sake -.-
Some people say one thing ; make a promise,
but suddenly back down on their promise.
Is that fair?
Whatever time, whatever I am doing,
be it 3am or 3pm, if that person called,
I would answer. ARGH ._.
I am so damn RAAAAAAAAWR HURT.
I really don't wanna believe that you are
using me but it is difficult.
Sighs, whatever.

maybe that's all you want.
i can't give more ._. i am sorry.
wish i could be more ):

2010-01-02T22:00:00.001+08:00

Walk by Pantera

Can't you see I'm easily bothered by persistence
One step from lashing out at you...
You want in to get under my skin
And call yourself a friend
I've got more friends like you
What do I do?

Is there no standard anymore?
What it takes, who I am, where I've been
Belong
You can't be something you're not
Be yourself, by yourself
Stay away from me
A lesson learned in life
Known from the dawn of time

Re-spect, walk
What did you say?
Re-spect, walk
Are you talking to me?
Are you talking to me?

Run your mouth when I'm not around
It's easy to achieve
You cry to weak friends that sympathize
Can you hear the violins playing your song?
Those same friends tell me your every word

Is there no standard anymore?
What it takes, who I am, where I've been
Belong
You can't be something you're not
Be yourself, by yourself
Stay away from me
A lesson learned in life
Known from the dawn of time

Re-spect, walk
What did you say?
Re-spect, walk
Are you talking to me?
Re-spect, walk
What did you say?
Re-spect, Walk
Are you talking to me?
Are you talking to me?
No way punk!

(Solo~)

Re-spect, walk
What did you say?
Re-spect, walk
Are you talking to me?
Re-spect, walk
What did you say?
Re-spect, walk
Are you talking to me?
Are you talking to me?
Walk on home ~~boy~~kid!

2010-01-02T21:31:00.003+08:00

265th Post! :D Yay!

So, uh, yeah. Happy New Year. ._.
Not so happy I guess. LOL :X
Rev died on 28th ._.
So farking saddd! D: Hahahas.
Erms. ._. yeah. So like.
Nothing much. Uneventful.
Went to my Aunt's house for New Years.
Uhs. Yeah ._. School starting.
It's like "Holy fvck, it is O Levels!"
Hahahahas -.- Yay.
I haven't started on my homework.
I haven't even finished reading
My new Literature book.
LOL._. wow am I screwed? hahahas.
Shierly has been pestering me to do homework ):
Awww Shierly. ):
Oh oh! Thanks for your present.
It's really sweet :D Hee! :D
So far, this Christmas, I received awesome presents :D
A book from Deborah.
This Forest Ghost figurine from Ting and Wan.
Cotton Pets from Sheri.
A bracelet from Shierly.
An A7X Tee from Jordan.
A Fedora from Fiona.
Necklace from Ryan SG.
Yeah ._. love all the things :D
Thanks you guys :D Awesome <3
Hahahahahas. Damn.
I should've gone out more ):
Hahahas. Meh whatever :D

Aww it's blur but who cares ^^ LOL
He looks good anyways ;) hahahas.
Syn <3 Hahahas.

"Play your game you better walk away ;
Your integrity don't mean shit ;
Crawl on me you fucking parasite ;
But I'm gonna take you out!"

- Thrashed and Scattered by A7X

2009-12-29T18:33:00.005+08:00

R.I.P Jimmy "The Rev"

February 10, 1981 - December 28, 2009

Unbelievable. -.- Shocking.
The feeling of finding out that he is dead,
is indescribable. So fucking sad D:
x.x He is one of fave drummers
and he is from my favorite band. -.-
Moreover, A7X were planning to
make a new album RAWRRRRR.
-.- FML. Seriously. -.-
Nobody can replace The Rev ;
Why? Because he is too fucking awesome.
His voice is unique, his drumming is amazing.
Sighs. Nothing else to blog about ):
Bye Beautiful People. ):

Eternal Rest - Avenged Sevenfold

Black enchanting eyes,
cut through my heart
with no regret or sign of life
They tear apart my pride
and cold runs through my veins
I feel their stare from miles
haunting every step
and they won't stop hunting me down
Forget the time will come,
when all around me's burned
and you'll still see me there
Asking where you went too
and what person brought you here
And why you left the burning children
cold out in the night
and calling for you all alone...

Dark in their hearts,
I can feel it burn inside of me
Tormented young with no souls, haunting me
Pain in their lives all they know is misery
Take these chains away that are holding me down
(Holding me down)

They'll find you alone
and your desperate and villainous ways
Turning their hearts into stone
they seek more than vengeance
Look in their eyes your pain is their satisfaction
Look in their eyes and see the darkness take hold
I'm controlled by fate (waiting for)
Tired of your parade (waiting for)
No sign of vengeance (waiting for)
Burn for the rest of time (waiting)

Hear the haunting words (They'll find you alone)
lost children with no heart are crying (Turning their hearts into stone)
and you're the lost mother they're calling
Go now, run and hide (seek more than vengeance)
I hear them crying at night (your pain is their satisfaction)
outside when the planets are falling (for the rest of time)
They want to feel and know you hear them (Go now, run and hide)

Dark in their hearts,
I can feel it burn inside of me
Tormented young with no souls, haunting me
Pain in their lives all they know is misery
Take these chains away that are holding me down
(holding me down)

Go now
Run and hide

Eternal rest in time
Eternal rest in time

2009-12-27T00:58:00.003+08:00

26th Dec partyy! :D

Well, it was tiring ._. LOL! :X
Erms, Debs was the 1st one at my house *-*
Then along came Wan :D ;
Then Yi Ting :D ;
Then Fiona :D ;
Then last but not least, Sheri ;o
Hahahahahas. Had lunch, parents cooked *-*
Woot, awesome.
Today, is the day, that people (ahem)
Ate things they never knew existed. LOL
Just too bad that SOME people in
a certain part of the world ;
Oh I don't know... KL Maybe?
Couldn't come *glares at Shierly*
LOLOLOL XD! hahahhas.
Kidding x.x erms. Yeah.
If i mentioned the food here,
you guys would be CLUELESS,
So i shall just save it LOL XD
Erms, yeah. Friends had to leave,
SORRY! D: >< Relatives came. x.x
Tolerated the young cousins.
My cousin, who is the same age as me ;
Was so fvcking stoned. I SWEAR.
LOL He was like :
"Shit lah, I don't wanna do anything sia."
LOL and like he kept on saying how tired he was
LOL Funny as hell -.-
Seriously, He was like a dead log x.x couldn't move.
LOLOL but fun to be around ;)
Yeah hahahahas. I was so tempted to tie some of my cousins down.
I SWEAR x.x Omg. Monsters x.x LOL
LOLOL :X no offense.
They are cute but... x.x
Gosh. Yeah Cleaned up -.-
I know this post doesn't make the party sound fun,
but it was... I guess LOL
I am too tired to blog x.x ):
Bye Beautiful People :D

2009-12-10T16:33:00.000+08:00

Life After You

Ten miles from town and I just broke down
Spittin' out smoke on the side of the road
I'm out here alone just tryin' to get home
To tell you I was wrong but you already know
Believe me I won't stop at nothin'
To see you so I've started runnin'

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughing with you
I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through
'Cause I know there's no life after you.

Last time we talked, the night that I walked
Burns like an iron in the back of my mind
I must've been high to say you and I
Weren't meant to be and just wasting my time
Oh, why did I ever doubt you?
You know I woule die here without you.

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughing with you
I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through
'Cause I know there's no life after you.

You and I, right or wrong, there's no other one
After this time I spent alone
It's hard to believe that a man with sight could be so blind
Thinkin' 'bout the better times, must've been outta my mind
So I'm runnin' back to tell you

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
Without you God knows what I'd do

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughing with you
I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through
'Cause I know there's no life after you.

~Daughtry

2009-12-09T13:40:00.003+08:00

LIARS

Everybody lies, it is natural.
I lie too but at least I admit to it.
I hate people who deny.
Deny what?
Deny the things that they've done.
Seriously, you look like a pussy.
You are a two-faced bastard.
And that will never change.
It will unfold sooner or later.
And you will look like the fool.
Trying to hide from the truth.
Yes, it is natural.
But the lie's already uncovered.
When other people know the truth,
You look like a total dick.
I am serious.
And we are all laughing at you.
But you deserve it, ha-ha.
You are a total hypocrite;
Saying one thing yet,
You contradict yourself.
Therefore making you look like :
AN ASS. Yes, I said it, an ass.
You better get your head out
From your ass, kiddo.
It is in too deep,
That you are just constantly
Shooting yourself in the foot.
But I have no intentions
Of helping you whatsoever.
Because you've been a dick.
I have no qualms about you
Being a total ass towards me;
But making a fool out of my friends,
You should go to hell and stay there.
You are so full of shit,
Take care and have a nice life.
But I highly doubt that will happen,
Since you've already screwed
Your life up, good luck to you.
I hope your bitch will
Support you.
~

OKAYS :D LOL Sudden change
In mood, I think so. LOL xD
Erms, basically, I don't know what to
Blog about x.x LOL Sighs.

For you ♥
"Confided in me was your heart;
I know it is hurting you,
But it is killing me"
-Unholy Confessions.

2009-12-06T19:59:00.004+08:00

The Heart is not suppose to think.
And when you use something for the wrong purpose;
It usually breaks.
♥

Hi people! :D Heehee :D
Erms, I am actually blogging ;o
Gosh. What to blog about! O.O
Help meeee LOL
I actually just wanted to post that saying.
*points to the top* :)
Hahahas.
Bye Beautiful People! :D
♥

I LOVE MY FRIENDS :D

2009-12-02T01:35:00.008+08:00

I feel like blogging about my friends. :D
I want to be thankful for them :)
It is in a random order :) no favorites. I swear.
LOL :D

Wan:)
Oh myyyyy :D So many things to be thankful for :D
Mmm, I've known you for 3 years, yup yup.
Everytime we go out together and spend
time together, you never fail to put a smile on my face.
:D I love your wit and charm but most of all;
I love you for who you are :D I swear I do.
You've been there for me during my hardest times. :D
*Ahem recent barbeque and other past years incidents ahem*
You make things humorous without trying;
THAT IS A GIFT XD :D
Yeah, you mean a lot to me, Wan.
Don't you forget that okay? :D
You've been the one who has never failed to make me laugh;
and dare I say laugh till my whole body aches XD!
iloveyoumillionsbillionstrillions, Wannie! :D
Thank you for being there for me always :D
♥

TINGTING:)
OH MY TIAN :) LOL Ah Lian dramatics :D LOL
Erms, yeah. Known you since Primary 3 :D Sweetness
You took care of me a LOT! Oh my.
You can be my mom :) Hahahas.
You've been there for me, through the past years' incidents too
*WINKS* :D LOL You know what I am talking about.
You always knew how to advise me on a lot of things x.x
Giving good advice at that too, oh my Lordie :)
Hahahas. You've always helped me.
You've always cared about me so much x.x
And always knew when something was bugging me.
My my, you know me too well ;)
Which is a VERY GOOD THING :D Hahas
You are always patient with me :D
Because I am so darn nonsensical and stubborn :X
Hahas. :D Yeah thank you for being my "mom" :D
iloveyoumillionsbillionstrillions, TingTing! :D
Thanks for being such a great mom :D LOL
♥

AHXI:)
Heehee :D My laughing buddy! :D
The Kao-Pei Queen *salutes*
I love your guai-lan-ness and kao pei-ness
It never fails to make me laugh.
You are extremely adorable :D I am speaking the truth.
A few people will agree with me :)
LOL mmm your laugh is like contagious. -.- Seriously.
LOL You always know how to brighten my day :D
And I like it how that the simplest things make you laugh.
That shows that you are easy to get along :D
You've stuck with me for like 1 year ++++, sistaaa LOL
So like I wanna thank you lah, you know. Just thank lahs.
LOL seriously. I want to go out with you and some other ;)
Remember our plan? LOL At Suntec LOL!
Yeah, that :X I want that to happen.
Buuuut, yeah :X LOL
Thanks for sticking by for the barbeque;
and making things interesting at BK LOL :D
iloveyoumillionsbillionstrillions, Ah Xi! :D
Thanks for being my hyper laughing buddy :D!
♥

JORDIE:)
Seriously. Don't. Sighs, that is epic. Awesome lahs!
LOL, hmmmmmmmm. How to start eh? D:
Basically you are one of the best guy friends I've ever had.
You understand me too well sometimes -.-
It is scary, serious. LOL But uh;
Your slience is killer, I tell you LOL
*pokes my side* Ha-Ha, so funny. -.-
That also can laugh.
But I swear, one day I am going to make you talk alot.
LOL. :) Hahahahas. It'll be interesting :)!
Hmmmm, we barely go out in a big group x.x
But you are still one of my bestests friends :D
LOL Jordie 大哥 LOL Hahahas... Funny..
LOL. You are the Guai Lan King. Ahhh.
Yeahhh. (L) LOL! Don't kill me :)
Hahahahas :X Thanks for being understanding ;o
And intimidating :D LOL You rock XD
iloveyoumillionsbillionstrillions, Jordie 大哥 :D!
Thanks for being the 3rd big brother that I should have LOL!
♥

SHERITAN:)
Well, known you since Primary 3;
and only got closer to you at Sec2ish LOL!
Yeah. :X Hahahas you've been there for me countless of times
You've cursed at all those that have hurt me x.x
LOL I appreciate that. Basically the violent older sis.
LOL. Your Yaoisity never cease to amaze me LOL
Well, yeah, hahahas I intro-ed you Yaoi anyways >_>
Not really intro-ed but got ya hooked on it :D
Heehee, I am awesome. LOL
You are one of those that has seen me cry many times x.x
It's not new to you LOL D: Dang LOL!
We always piss each other off, which is a plus point! :D
You know me too well too :) LOL
You can predict what I am going to do as well I guess :X
LOL Yeahhh. So thanks for being there :D
iloveyoumillionsbillionstrillions, Sheri Tan :D!
Thanks for the being the violent one o.o LOL! :D
♥

DEBOS:)
Hmm, you are the one that taught me many things x.x
You always told me to stand up for myself;
which I am trying my hardest to do so :D
You are always telling me to take no shit from others :X
Well, difficult but I will do it LOL
You are always there to give straightforward comments.
All these things opened my eyes Debos :D
You are there to comfort me when somethings go wrong :X
But also there to scold me if I do something really stupid;
which is quite often LOL :X
But I am grateful for your scolding because they teach me.
You've taught me :D You are always friendly
and willing to hear me out :D
You are like the "dad" while TingTing is the "mom" LOL
:X Don't think too much about it -.-
It just feels like it LOL :X
Yeah, your sudden change in attitude amazes me too.
Like one minute you are grumbling about something
and the next, you are like "OH A CUTE CAT! MEOWMEOW"
Gosh, epic. That's the way Debos is :D
iloveyoumillionsbillionstrillions, Debos! :D
Thanks for being the random but awesome bestie :D!
♥

SHIERLY:)
Oh~ the girl that always wonders about me :X
LOL, still confused about me eehehhh!?!
LOL kidding, thanks Shierly! :D
You are my hyper bunny :) You always bring a smile to my face
:D, surprisingly, your hyperness doesn't irritate me :)
LOL it's quite entertaining. You are ever-so-sweet, kiddo :D
Hahas, it is a wonder we get along so well :X
You are the TOTAL girly-girl while I am the tomboy =/
LOL And you are always trying to dress me up :D
I thank you for your countless efforts buuuut :X
I just don't seem to fit that kind of thing :X LOL
But really, Shirls, job well done trying to girlify me ;o
LOL hahahahas, *hugs* don't worry :)
I might one day give you a heart attack by wearing a skirt LOL.
iloveyoumillionsbillionstrillions, Shierly! :D
Thanks for being that ultra girly girl in my life :D
♥

RYANSG:)
Well, known you since last year.
You are a hyper person, too hyper but meh,
fine by me LOL
We are the awesome food mixers! :D & Testers LOL
Yeah, you give me good advice too,
You know how to make me laugh by your clumsiness.
LOL :X oppps? Did I just say that? LOL Seriously. :)
But you really know how to make things fun.
Your hyperness, though, is amazing and everlasting -.-
I cannot believe a guy can be that hyper.
LOL, yeah. You've been with me through my past year's incidents too.
LOL, ahem, you know. :X The ones that really upset me LOL
Yeah, I need to thank you for being there for me yo
It's really awesome having you as my best friend :)
LOL. Yeaaaaaaaaaaaaah
Ahhahahahas LOL -.- okay I have no idea what to put here.
Errrms, it's really awesome going out with you?
And mixing food items together -.-
*touch wood* You've never fallen sick eh?
We are too awesome for sickness LOL!
iloveyoumillionsbillionstrillions, Ryan SG! :D
Thanks for being there for me, SG :D
♥

FIONAMEI:)
Thanks for being there for me, mei :)
You've talked to me a lot about stuff.
You've comforted me and I am sorry if I get mad at you.
>< But seriously, I want to thank you for being there for me.
You are always encouraging me no matter what. And I love you for that :)
I mean, I am grateful for everything that you've done for me.
But sometimes you do too much :X Heehee Don't over do it :)
That's all I am saying :D yeah? :)
But still, it's your thought that counts :)
Somethings might not have worked out before, but they will, don't worry :D
hahas. Yeah, thanks for everything, xiaomeimei :D LOL
iloveyoumillionsbillionstrillions, Fiona Mei :D!
Thanks for being my mei~ :D ♥

LEONKOR:)
Kor~ thanks for being there for me :D
You are one patient and tolerant kor :X
LOL hahahas. You are always funny
and always enlightening me with your NS experiences :O
LOL mmm, you've always comforted me too :D!
That is why you are here! :D
Because you've comforted me always :D LOL
Even though sometimes you are busy, you still make time :)
Hahas, it is really awesome to have a brother like you :D
Hahas, your advice always strengthens me.
Your randomness always amuses me too :D
Hahas, basically, thank you for being there for me :D
iloveyoumillionsbillionstrillions, Leon Kor! :D
Thanks for being the 2nd big brother I should have :D!
♥

last but not least, for you Cee♥
I've known you for 3 years i think.
i've never regretted one bit of it.
i've enjoyed and love you all the way.
sometimes i get annoying and piss you off,
but i just wanted you to know that i love you.
mmm you mean a lot to me and i care about you alot
thinking about you makes me smile,
but makes me sad at the same time ><
but the feeling is good :)
thanks for being there for me, cee
iloveyoumillionsbillionstrillions, Cee
^^ <3>♥

2009-11-30T00:35:00.001+08:00

rawr why did you have to go to thailand? -.-
come back now lol~ i miss you ;o
hahas even though i am suppose to be mad at you
i still miss you tons x.x i have no idea why
and you are only coming back in december -.-
spend christmas with me? :D iloveyou<3 LOL

2009-11-24T22:47:00.005+08:00

Hmmm, I am only updating now :D

Lol. Went AFA during the weekend.
Was quite a let down. =/ The 1st day was so-so.
But the 2nd day was definitely better;
Because we had more company~! :D
Hahas yeah. I have a few pictures =X!
1st Day~:

Pretty~ :D

LOL, it's kinda cool I guess.

Woot :D Some one drew him.

I think they are quite cute xD!

I want to marry that dog ): LOL he was totally awesome :D

2nd Day~:
*There are more pictures on this day:)*

SmellGood and Igz watching Ben 10 =/
Look at the seriousness on SmellGood's face. LOL
EPIC :)

At Kidsland x.x LOL

What the rest made o.o

SmellGood's friend, Samuel.
Look at the concentration LOLOL.

Yeah, SmellGood being SmellGood, going around licking things.

Got bored of AFA. LOL :X

Woot Toys R Us :D Yay? My hoodie <3
Needless to say who that was. LOL

After that, met Jessie and Jordan :3
Lol. Seriously, fun at Macs with them LOL
Erms yeah. The barbeque?
Fuck the barbeque, we went to BK :)
Yeah. I am sorry guys for making you walk like fools x.x
Seriously. I love you guys a lot :D
Thanks for being there for me :)
Bye Beautiful People :)

A part from All of This - Blink 182

With all of this I know now
Everything inside of my head
It all just goes to show how
Nothing I know changes me at all
Again I waited for this to change instead
To tear the world in two
Another night with ~~her~~ him
But I'm always wanting you

With all of this I feel now
Everything inside of my heart
It all just seems to be how
Nothing I feel pulls at me at all
Again I waited for this to pull apart
To break my time in two
Another night with ~~her~~ him
But I'm always wanting you

~~She's~~ He's all I need
~~She's~~ He's all I dream
~~She's~~ He's all I'm always wanting
~~She's~~ He's all I need
~~She's~~ He's all I dream
~~She's~~ He's all I'm always wanting you

things like this always fucking happen.
why? how the fuck would i know.
i am just that unluckly. fuck my life.
seriously. sighs. byebye

2009-11-19T22:10:00.001+08:00

Yeah. -.- Screw you whoever who put that thing up on Syn's search engine.
Get a life, pl0x LOL. Okay maybe I am the one who needs that life. LOL
But seriously-.- That's annoying. LOL

2009-11-17T19:01:00.006+08:00

Back from camp. Well I was back yesterday.
I was too damn tired to go to school today. x.x
I am still so damn tired. LOL :X
Seriously, -_- I am so damn annoyed.
My dad is such a freaking man bitch.
So damn bitchy today -.- What the fuck.
It is like, I am so damn tired. -_-
And just because I was using the laptop,
he is scolding me saying I am addicted.
HELLO, I JUST CAME BACK FROM CAMP.
I WOULD LIKE TO INTERACT WITH MY FRIENDS.
IS IT THAT PAINFUL TO LET ME DO SO?
And he keeps saying how I wasted my November holiday.
I had 1 week of school, I had camp and I have school yet again.
OH I AM SO WASTING MY HOLIDAY.
FUCK OFF, DAD. Seriously, just let me enjoy the rest of Nov.
I am so sick and tired of everything.
Things are getting bad to worse.
Moreover, he accused me of not ordering my textbooks.
I DID ALRIGHT? I NEED A FREAKING CREDIT CARD.
And I had to use my mom's and my mom isn't at home yet.
Guess what my effing dad said to me?
"Stop giving excuses to make it look like you did something"
WOW OMG, that seriously snapped something in my head.
Seriously, I hate it when my parents say that I am giving excuses,
WHEN IT IS THE FUCKING TRUTH.
What? Just because you did not hear something to satisfy you,
they are excuses? Grow up for fuck's sakes.
This is fucking reality, not your fucking dreamland.
If you want to hear something to please yourself, go talk to yourself.
Seriously, are you like fucking retarded?
Truth hurts, alright? And truth always pisses people off.
And I do not give excuses unless I really need to.
When I tell the truth, my parents think that I am giving excuses.
What the fuck?
Also, my parents didn't even seem interested in my camp experience.
Now I know why i rather talk to my friends.
Seriously. -.- Whatever man.
Other people aren't making things better anyways x.x
LOL, I MISS SHERI TAN SHU YI.
FASTER COME BACK HOME YOU DAMN BITCH D:
LOL, :D I miss you tons :O damn it. :D
LOLOLOL, yeah, I've loads of things to tell ya.
Mmmm, sighs. Okays, that's all beautifu lpeople. :)

A part of Unholy Confessions - Avenged Sevenfold

I wish I could be the one,
The one who won't care at all
But being the one on the stand,
I know the way to go, no one's guiding me.
When time soaked with blood turns it's back,
I know it's hard to fall.
Confided in me was your heart
~~I know it's hurting you~~, but it's killing me.

haiz, i freaking love you so much ><
why does this always happen? sighs.
i hope you'll be happy with her. (L)

2009-11-11T12:59:00.000+08:00

To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold, Utopian dream.

You do something to me that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line if I said "I miss you"?

i really do miss you ><~ iloveyou<3

2009-11-07T21:26:00.002+08:00

Firstly, I would to say THANK YOU TO MY PARENTS.
Yay! Why? Because they've just spend $2000 on themselves
and my brother. *claps* Well fucking done.
Know what I wanted to buy? Shoelaces, that's right, shoelaces.
Humble? I think so, but nooooo, my mom just told me to get it another time.
Yayness? Yeah, thanks. I really know that $8 is so difficult at times.
Maybe it might be less. Oh well. Joy to the world.
Bye Beautiful People <3 Love ya loads.

2009-11-03T19:59:00.002+08:00

CAN'T WAIT FOR CHURCH CAMP!?!?!?!
Maybe, MAYBE NOT. aw
Seriously, 3 days 2 nights without parents will do some good.
-_- get away from my dad's stinking attitude.
Jeez. He thought I didn't go to school yesterday. W.T.F -.-?
Then my mom thought I played truant,
WHOOPEE-FUCKING-DOO! -.-
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY, thanks for the trust, PARENTS.
Seriously. Lol. -.- Whatever. -.-
Meh, that's all. 3 more days of school. -.-
Yay? Bye Beautiful People (:

2009-10-17T01:23:00.002+08:00

EXAMS ARE OVER! REJOICE! <3
OKAYS BYE BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE!

Well now I found myself
Wish I was someone else
My heart are stained with love
Wish I could take it away
I hid behind the shell
In time the pain will melt
My heart are stained with love
Wish I could fake it

this is how i feel. yeah. okays. byes.

2009-10-05T15:44:00.001+08:00

And if you go,
I wanna go with you
And if you die,
I wanna die with you
Take your hand and walk away

~Lonely Day by SOAD

for you♥

2009-09-30T16:41:00.002+08:00

WOOT changed skin :O I likey. :3
It's nice. Stupid MixPod.com. -.-"
I can't make my playlist! ):
I have to use my old ones. D:
Nevermind >:D LOL Anyways.
See ya beautiful people.
Oh, P.S:
Shierly, I ain't updating about you!
*sticks out my tongue* neh neh neh. LOL
Muahaha. Nah, kidding ;X
I will update about you some other time :D

♥

2009-09-28T15:20:00.003+08:00

OKAY~ -.- Haven't updated in a while.
Shierly is asking me nicely to update :D
Okay I shall. Short update then. LOL.
Examinations are coming (Main point)
Gonna meet Jessie and Jordan with Fiona
this Friday :D WOOT STUDY! I hope ._."
Lol. Meh, I shall work hard. :D
Difficult but not impossible. (:
Erm, school's been a bit boring -.-"
Nevertheless my friends are around
to brighten it (: Hahahas. Gosh.
I feel so, bored. LOL Mmmm,
Shierly won an award thingy :X
She shook hands with the PM?
LOL Congratulations Shierly (: <3
Graduation Nite was on Saturday.
Gah, tiring hahas.
My shoes killed me and gave me major blisters. :O
Hahahas. Anyways. I think that's all. LOL!
Bye Beautiful People! (:

yes, i still miss you

2009-09-03T16:40:00.002+08:00

Effing pissed off with some people =.="
I do not know why, but I just hate you.
Sorry if I have an attitude but seriously,
I effing hate you so damn effing much =.="
GAHHHH~ Anyways, my progress card is so ugly
GOD, it is just as ugly as I am ._."
Honestly, I failed so many!
I can practically visualize my progress card.
And my dad is like expecting me to like,
Do 85s and shit like that =.="
To me, it is effing unrealistic! What the heck!
This close to killing myself, I swear to GOD.
I am sorry that I brought God in.
Geez. =.=" Whatever. I really need to buck up.
Gosh, I so want to finish Secondary school ASAP.
-________-" But I am so damn DUMB. Okay.
Gonna go now, see ya =="

2009-08-29T23:04:00.000+08:00

Woot woot :D I am actually updating.
ZOMG right? LOL XD Shut up :D Hahhas
Well, I am bored. LOL!
I have been playing Audition.
AGAIN. LOL XD Meh.
Who cares. LOL
End of Years are coming! Hot Dayum. LOL
Who cares. LOL :D
Mmmmm, bored~ :D Damn it LOL
I changed my blog skin :D LOL
==" Ain't that great but I like it.
It is simple :D Hahahas <3
I cannot seem to concentrate on my studies ):
I hope I don't kill my End of Years LOL
Okays I guess, that's all LOL
I have no idea what else to blog about.
:X Byebye <3

2009-07-06T15:31:00.001+08:00

Lets go!

With blood shot eyes I watch you sleeping
The warmth I feel beside me is slowly fading
Would she hear me if I calls her name?
Would she hold me if she knew my shame?

There's always something different going wrong
The path I walk's in the wrong direction
There's always someone fucking hanging on
Can anybody help me make things better?

Your tears don't fall
They crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty to come home
Your tears don't fall
They crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty to come home

The moments died, I hear no screaming
The visions left inside me are slowly fading
Would she hear me if I calls her name?
Would she hold me if she knew my shame?

There's always something different going wrong
The path I walk's in the wrong direction
There's always someone fucking hanging on
Can anybody help me make things better?

Your tears don't fall
They crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty to come home
Your tears don't fall
They crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty to come home

Oh! Yeah!

This battered room I've seen before
The broken bones they heal no more, no more
With my last breath I'm choking
Will this ever end I'm hoping
My world is over one more time

Lets go

Would she hear me if i called her name?
Would she hold me, if she knew my shame?

There's always something to be going wrong
The path I walk's in the wrong direction
There's always someone fucking hanging on
Can anybody help me make things better?

Your tears don't fall
They crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty to come home
Your tears don't fall [tears don't fall]
They crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty to come
Better!

Your tears dont fall they crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty to come home.

fuck love; i fucking hate this thing called "love"

2009-06-16T19:49:00.002+08:00

Okay this is probably gonna be a proper post.
Lol, anyways, I slept at like 4am this morning =="
Was trying to level my Audition character to 18.
LOL, my friend was around helping me XD
Played till around 3am and managed to license.
SMSed my friend till around 4am.
Hahahahas, he fell asleep while SMSing me =="
LOL, anyways, woke up at 8.45am this morning.
My friend SMSed me. LOL Hahahhas.
I was like "Whaaat?! 8.45?! Damn! :O"
Hahahahas. Anyways, chatted with my friend for a bit.
He had to prepare for work anyways. Hahahas.
Went online MSN. :D Jonneh and Mikey was online!
OMG <3 I miss them so damn much! :D
Heehee! :DDDDDDDDDDDD Anyways.
I didn't play much of Audition this morning.
Only around 1.30pm I started playing. LOL
Was then joined by Sheri and Debos on Audition :D
Heeheeheeeeeee! :D Played till around 2.30pm
I had tuition LOL! Tuition teacher had a present for me! :D
Shierly called me to ask whether I had "tools"
LOL I shall not mention what are they =X!
She also wanted me to get me to collect my present :O!
That was at like 2.30-ishPM
Then like around 4pm Shierly called again.
She, Dayna and Juliana were coming over for a bit.
Hahahhahahas, they want Sheri and I to act in their movie making.
:D So cute, I saw the script. It's really awesome :D!
The three of them were messing with my stuff toys.
Hahahhahas. Juliana had to go home.
Dayna had to collect her stuffs at Shierly's house.
==" Shierly was like begging me to go over to her house.
In the end, I did go over. LOL
Left my house for hers at 5.30pm :D LOL!
Met Dayna and Shierly along the way in. Hahahahas.
Then went up to Shierly's house. =="
She insisted on painting my fingernails. LOL
She painted them sparkly purple.
(I haven't removed it, don't worry Shierly<3!)
Gosh, Shierly was like messing with my hair.
Putting clips and pink hairbands on my hair. =="
It was kind of creepy how Shierly found me cute.
==" It really is. I swear. Kim+Girly=Disaster. (:
LOL! Anyways, it was really fun being at Shierly's house :D!
Her brother was like playing Dynasty Warriors. :D
Hahahas, I swear, Sima Yi is hot XDDDD
LOL, random :D Mmmmm yeah.
Shierly sent me home, well, kind of. But meh.
Hahahahas, I opened my present and I was like :O!
OMG! I've seen emails like this! :DDDD
It's a book about The Best Test Paper Blunders. :O
I was like OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGG! :D hahahahahs.
*instantly drawn to it*
There was this bookmark too.
Which has this chinese word "Ren" and in English there's this word "Patience"
:D Hahahahahhas. It's super awesome! :D!
Thanks to Shierly and Jasmine for choosing my presents! :D
Thanks Shierly, Dayna and Juliana for coming over :D!
And thanks Shierly for letting me come over! :O! Hahahas
Anyways, got home and my dad was kinda moody =="
LOL he started ranting at me about my brother.
That kind of shows how pissed my brother has made my dad.
My dad doesn't usually rant much. LOL
My dad was just going on and on about my brother.
LOL I just listened and kind of inwardly agreed.
My brother is an idiot. LOL I am sorry for saying that anyways.
Anyways, things turned out fine. ==" Meh.
My dad was angry at me, which was a good sign LOL.
Anyways, now here I am blogging about today. :D
Sooo, seee you people! :D <3!

2009-06-14T22:40:00.003+08:00

YO! :D HELLO PEOPLE! :D
Hahahahhas. I have videos for ya.
LOL:D

It has Syn Gates in it but it's just a short while.
There's some suggestive themes in this video.
So if you want to know,
Syn's in 2.23-3.05. Yeah
He's in that part. HOT, I think it's probably like,
Last year? Yeah, but his hair is hot (: HAHAHAS.
:D

2009-06-13T23:32:00.004+08:00

OMG! :D Awesomeeeeee daaaay! :D HEHEHHE.

Well, had a party! :D
Sheri, Meow Ping, Yi Ting, Wan, Deborah, Nicole Quek and Fiona came.
:D
OMG <33333 I LOVE YOU GUYS :D ^^ Thank you so much. You made this day superly, extraordinary-ly awesome. LOL! ._. My spelling's a phailure. I am sorry.
LOL I love you guys so much :D <333333
Thank you Sheri for the notebook, marker and teddy keychain! :D<3
Thank you Meow Ping and Ting for the pencil case, keychain and phone holder! :D<3
Thank you so much, Wan for being able to make it! :D OMG! I squealed! :D<3
Thank you Debos for the painting and the Avenged Sevenfold self-titled album! :D<3
Thank you Nicole for the drawing of Kaka-Sensei and Vinnie! :D<3
Thank you Fiona for coming too! ^^ <3
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH :D I laughed so much today :D HAHAHAHAHHAAHAHS. Watched MANY MANY KOREAN VIDEOS!
:D OMGGGGGGGGG!
It's really funny and kinda found out that they are quite hot =/
BUT! No fear, I still LOVE Synyster Gates ^^ :D
I love Avenged Sevenfold's music anywayyys! :D
Hahahahahas. Mmm yeah!
TO SUM IT ALL UP. TODAY WAS FREAKING, OUT OF THIS WORLD FUN!
:D OMG! HHAHAHAHAHHAS <33333333333333333 Best day :D <3!
I love you guys; (Not in any order)
Yi Ting;
Meow Ping;
Sheri;
Nicole Quek;
Wan;
Deborah;
Fiona.
MUAHAHAHHA <3 BYE! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
<333333333333333333333 Oh, thank you everybody who gave me presents ^^ :D
And WISHED ME <33333333 Hahahas awesome :D! Love you guys too! :D

Cover of Avenged Sevenfold ^^

2009-06-12T23:15:00.003+08:00

What the hell? What the hell is wrong with you!?
I mean like, you can tell her all those things.
Like "You should feel obligated to your family."
"You should listen to your family and love them."
"You should not hurt your family."
"If you are not obligated to your family, I would not even love you."
BROTHER, SCREW YOU.
Look into the FUCKING MIRROR AND SAY IT.
Look deep into your reflected eyes and put your right hand over your heart,
and say those things. I doubt you mean it.
Because why? You are not even fucking obligated to your own family.
You are afraid of not being able to be happy with her after marriage?
You are afraid that she isn't happy now?
Guess what, this whole fucking family is unhappy with you.
It is because of what you are doing to mom.
And you dare say, I am the only person you can talk to.
Honestly, BROTHER, sometimes, I am not even listening.
You even asked me to talk to her=="
What the fuck, she isn't my girlfriend.
You talk to her. You just want me to talk to her so I can like her.
Guess what, I am not that easy, BROTHER.
You and her have hurt mom. So yeah, not that easy anymore.
So, I doubt you will ever fucking realize what you have done.

2009-06-11T23:26:00.003+08:00

Heeeeeeyyyo :D Wheeeee~ School's all over.

There's a party this Saturday :D Hahahas.
I can't wait to spend time with friends :D
Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D hahahahahs.
I'm high from looking at Syn Gates :O! LOL
I know I am obsessed but he is REALLY HOT ):

That's his new hair :D It's awesome huh?
His spikes are like AWESOME. :D <333

This is the only time he looks awesome with his red fedora.

:D <3!

This is kind of my favorites :O! I love his look. :D
Hehehe, the person next to him is his half brother, I think.
Johnny Gera, yeah. I think so. =X

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! HIGHHHH! :D
I LOVE EVERYBODY <33333 BYEBYE :D

2009-06-10T22:08:00.004+08:00

OKAY! 3, 2, 1~! :D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU;
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU;
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WAN<3
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

Dearest Wan,
Thank you so much for being there for me.
I have cherished every moment together with you.
Every happy, serious and sad moment.
All those little things you have done makes a big difference.
You do not owe anything to me because you have done so much.
No matter how small or big, it is the thought<3.
And I love you for who you are :D
Hahahas, you've cheered me up so much.
I thank you so much for everything you have done. :D
Love you tons, take care of yourself :D <3333!

Some random videos.

Synyster's so sexy when he spoke Spanish. Hot damn it. :D
Hahahahas. Super sexy :D ^^

Erm, not being mean or anything,
But Syn looks really fat.
Like he shoved some food into his mouth and is talking.
Okay it's not the full damn thing but yeah. =="

2009-06-09T10:29:00.006+08:00

I've got like tons of awesome pictures of A7X. :D

LOL! Hahahahahahs. But I am only gonna show a few.

This is M.Shadows :D Hahahahas. Cute eh? :D

Some loser used Zacky Vee's picture at VF ==" LOL

Meh, not much changes uh? :D XD And I've only got one! ):

Johnnnny :D hahahas, isn't he adorable? :D Hahahas.

The Rev :O! I think he is the one that changed a lot in appearances. :D
He looks way hotter and way better now :D

You guys want more photos of rock band members when they were younger?
Clickyyy HERE

I love this the best LOL. Because it is adorable. :D
Matt should be the buzz cut one,
The top left hand one should be The Rev,
The top right hand one should be Johnny,
The bottom left hand one should be Zacky
and the bottom right hand should be Syn. (:
LOL Aren't they cute? The artist did an excellent job :O!
I'm done LOL :D

2009-06-07T20:46:00.003+08:00

I have got some awesome videos of A7X :D
It is dedicated to all A7X fans :D
Especially Sheri and Raphael. :D
Hahahahahahas.
And also, through all these videos,
I have realized how mean Matt, Zack, James and Brian are towards Jonathan.
D: They are REALLY MEAN! :O T.T
Poor Johnny! ): Sighs LOL WATCH THESE VIDEOS.

This is really cute! :D Where Brian wakes Johnny up.
LAWLS :D And A7X just being REALLY FUNNY AND CUTE! :D

WOOHOO SYN IS SO HOT IN HERE! :D

Okays that's all. MANY VIDEOS :O! OMG! :D
I love Avenged Sevenfold so much! :D:D:D

2009-06-06T20:52:00.000+08:00

I shall update today :D! LOL. (:
Erms, yeah. Just got back from my Aunt's house.
Lawls. Tomorrow gonna go for 10.30 mass. :O!
Oh my goodness! I feel so holy. :D LOL. XDD
Ahah! Ahah! XD Lawls. I feel so lame-ed. LOL
Gonna go mass with Nicole Quek! <3! Hahahas!
Any body wanna join? RAWR! :D Hahahas.

2009-06-03T22:13:00.002+08:00

I am posting again. Haha. :D Mmmhmm :D
Yesterday was my birthday. It was totally fun.
I actually forgot it was my birthday HAHAHAS.
My entire class sang to me. My Literature class too.
Hahahas. Awesome. I love them :D
The best presents was that my friends and family were with me.
:D Hahahas. I love you guys a lot. :D
Thank you for your wishes and presents, sweethearts<3! :D
Hahahahas. ^-^ Love you guys a lot.
Erm, but at night, everything just sucked -.-"
Sorry, just that my mom and brother fought again.
My brother was asking for money again.
It was to send to his girlfriend. Sighs.
Whenever I look at my mom, I want to break down crying.
I feel like murdering my brother. Sighs.

2009-05-25T20:41:00.002+08:00

Wheeeeeet. Tiring day, I cannot be bothered to go into details.
Because it was too tiring and kind of not a real picnic.
After the picnic, had A Mathematics lesson.
Mr Poh went through the A Mathematics Examination paper.
LOL. A lot of stupid things that I missed out. Oh well.
LOL. Went over to Primary School side, GOSH!
Nostalgia~! :O Hahas. Went over to do some coaching.
The students were really enthusiastic and cute.
They were so eager to learn. I loved that. Hahahas.
Deborah and Ting talked to me about some personal things.
They were really scary and serious.
What they said were true and blunt but I did not mind.
Because I know, deep in my heart, I know it is true too.
And now, I think, I will really take action about it.
Shhhh, I shan't say anything more :D
Mmmmmm, after that, went to Bedok Interchange for some late lunch.
:D Hahahas. Talked some more with Ting and Deborah.
Then went back home :D Ting followed.
She helped with brownie making, so please thank her. :D
Now, I am dead beat. LOL So yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

i am sorry that it has to be this way; good bye

2009-05-24T12:50:00.003+08:00

This is my brother's friend.
The one with the Rock Band set.
He only has one video but yeah.
He is good (: Hmmmmm :D
He gives Chemistry Tuition too :O
LOL XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD Okay random.
Hahahas. Meh. Anyways.
I just wanted to post it :D It is awesome job (:

2009-05-24T00:15:00.001+08:00

Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside

A part of lyrics from The Kill by 30 Seconds to Mars

Haha. (: Well, I love those lyrics :D

2009-05-22T15:51:00.001+08:00

Last Resort- Papa Roach

Cut my life into pieces,
This is my last resort.
Suffocation,
No breathing,
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding.

This is my last resort.

Cut my life into pieces.
I've reached my last resort,
Suffocation,
No breathing.
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding.
Do you even care if I die bleeding?
Would it be wrong?
Would it be right?
If I took my life tonight?
Chances are that I might.
Mutilation out of sight,
And I'm contemplating suicide.

'Cause I'm losing my sight,
Losing my mind,
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine.
Losing my sight,
Losing my mind,
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine.

I never realized I was spread too thin,
Till it was too late,
And I was empty within,
Hungry,
Feeding on chaos,
And living in sin.
Downward spiral, where do I begin?
It all started when I lost my mother,
No love for myself,
And no love for another.
Searching to find a love up on a higher level.
Finding nothing but questions and devils.

'Cause I'm losing my sight,
Losing my mind,
Wish somebody would tell me in fine.
Losing my sight,
Losing my mind,
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine.
Nothing's alright,
Nothing is fine,
I'm running and I'm crying.
I'm crying.
I'm crying.
I'm crying.
I'm crying.

I can't go on living this way.

Cut my life into pieces,
This is my last resort,
Suffocation,
No breathing,
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding.
Would it be wrong?
Would it be right?
If I took my life tonight,
Chances are that I might.
Mutilation out of sight,
And I'm contemplating suicide.

'Cause I'm losing my sight,
Losing my mind,
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine.
Losing my sight,
Losing my mind,
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine.
Nothing's alright,
Nothing is fine,
I'm running and I'm crying.

I can't go on living this way.

Can't go on.
Living this way.
Nothing's alright.

2009-05-20T17:12:00.002+08:00

OH MY GOODNESS. ROCK BAND 2 ROCKS :D
LOL ._." Sorry. LOLOL. It has awesome songs :O
Okay, I know I am suppose to be resting and shit
since I am sick LOL. But yeah.
My brother asked me to join in. :D Hahahahas.
So anyways. We were playing the campaign mode.
And like it was like this MTV 5 song setlist thing.
So like, the first song was P!ATD, then Paramore
THEN OMG OMG OMG. I SWEAR!
I didn't know that this song was in this game :D
ALMOST EASY. LAWLS. I got 100% for the solo and
then entire song. BUT. I was playing Easy :D
OKAY I AM A NOOB. SO SHUT UP. LOL
But like OH MY GOODNESS?! ALMOST EASY<3
LOL My brother was on drums. And he was like
grumbling his ass off. He was like
"CB song... Stupid drums. Psychotic.." Blah blah blah.
I WAS LIKE IT IS AWESOME OKAY?
LOL I just found out, there's CA and Afterlife too :D
WOOOHOOOO. I want! But this game isn't my brother's
It's his friend's :3 LOL The instruments too :O
Damn good game. Must play :D Hahahahas n________n
Besides, CA and Afterlife must be bought. FAG ):
LOL Hahahhas. Okay whatever. Bye bye! :D

2009-05-19T20:05:00.004+08:00

HEY PEOPLE :D I AM HERE TO BLOG ABOUT MY RESULTS :D
LOL I seem happy, but I AM NOT. LOL.
I failed 2 so that means, NO GOING OUT ^^ LOL
Mmmmm, let's start.
English: 64/100
E Mathematics: 65/100
Chinese: 52/100
Pure Physics: 23/100
Pure Chemistry: 48/100 (One fucking mark yo because it was 29/60)
A Mathematics: 64/100
History+SS: 55/100
Pure Literature: 54/100
That's about it folks. Not a job well done. But I don't give a shit.
Because I knew that I won't be going out this June.
:D Hahahahahs ^-^ Byebye!

2009-05-17T15:03:00.003+08:00

I think I need to just make things clear and come clean. I really cannot hold in my emotions anymore because I will just break down any minute. If You think that it hurts you to read my blog, it kills me to type this out. It does. You said that you wanted to make things right, you would treat our friendship better. You promised a chance. You promised so many things, yet you do this to me. Have I not been there to talk to you till late in the nights? Have I not been there for you when you needed somebody. I feel like I have been used, taken for granted, something that is only needed when you need somebody to talk to. Nothing else more than that. Because why? You have other people. But, now I realize, I need to apologize for hurting you and making you feel crappy. I have hurt you and made you feel so fucked up. And now you are facing much things and I am making you feel worse. I think, I should get myself out of your life since I am not helping you. I want you to see the letter yet I want to hide it myself. There is so many things I want to tell you. But even if I do tell you, it'll never matter to you because it is not important. Sighs, I am sorry. Please forgive me.

Thank you RMK for talking to me last night
It means a lot. Sorry for crying again. I could not take it.
Stay happy dude. ^^ Byebye

2009-05-16T19:21:00.005+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE! :D I am here to blog.
Well, duh. LOL. Erm. :D
Check this website out! It's A7X stuff (hints)
LOL I am just kidding. It sells cool stuff.
And yeah, hope you guys just don't
get a heart attack from viewing it
due to the prices LOL XD bye! :D

Oh oh! I just remembered something that my Priest said.
It was something about love :O Hahahas.
Erm something like:
"Love is not about loving the rose, it is about loving it's thorns too"
I was like o.o WOOHOOO That's going onto my blog! :D

Never will I forget you, and all the memories past,
So rarely I get to see your face,

2009-05-15T18:19:00.005+08:00

BRIAN ELWIN HANER, JUNIOR A.K.A SYNYSTER GATES IS THE *** <3!

Go figure what I said :D Hahahahas :D
He makes me smile with his goofiness :D

Awwwwwh :D Hahahas n______________n

They look awesome. :D I like Jimmy's tie! :D
I've got another picture (: And it's just for SHERI :D

There you go SHERI! :D He is hot in 'ere :D Hahas.
Byebye! :D

pretend that i never existed, okay?
i just wished that i am more like her.
>will never be loved, yo<

2009-05-11T16:26:00.001+08:00

fuck it all :D

2009-05-09T21:56:00.002+08:00

Things WERE awesome today. Really WERE. Gosh. -.-" Things just fucked up when my family and I were at my Grandmother's house. I hate my mom's step brother, little bastard. He insulted my mother and father. He can fucking die. I don't give a shit about him anymore. Motherfucker. He called my dad a "MotherFucker" and a "Fucking Primary-6 Education Bastard". Dude, what the fuck. Grow up bitch. Gosh. He even told my mom to "Go Fuck Yourself" I'm proud of my dad. My dad punched him in the eye. HAH. In your face you little faggot. He was so scared of my dad that he locked the house gate. LOL. My dad just punched him through the gate. He is a fucking bastard. He still dared to call my mom "My Sister" FUCK OFF YOU LITTLE WORM. You've hurt my entire family and grandmother. He has no God damn respect for anybody but himself. Really. Call yourself a Catholic, get your fucking head out of your ass for goodness sakes. You acted as if you forgot that you called my dad a "Primary Six Education No Life" and you even chased my dad out of granddaddy's house, GUESS WHAT MOTHERFUCKER, you don't own that house! Granddaddy might be gone but it's under his name, you bitch. You even insulted my dad's family, how dare you call yourself a human being. You should be fucking grateful that granddaddy is not around anymore, thank God that you're not granddaddy's real son. Geez. If I was my brother, I would have punched you in the house there and then. Count yourself lucky you bitch.

Thrashed and Scattered
-Avenged Sevenfold

Keep on writing you're just raping yourself (nothing can take my mind away from them)
Don't you ask about me, ask 'bout somebody else (Once I've fallen there's many stories to tell)
I can feel it, won't embrace it, it's overwhelming how far you take it (Stuck in a state of questioning)
And don't you tell me you know we're destined, you won't convince me, I won't listen (Resentment building, you've put our lives on hold)

Trashed and scattered again, I'm feelin' so low
You waste your breath while fuckin' with me, my blood is so cold
My destination always unknown, I'll find my way there
but goddamn motherfuckers always wasting my time

I won't be the victim, but the first to cast a stone
Sedated nights to the bar room fights as metropolis takes its toll
And don't you try to stop me, it's a place you'll never know
Don't try to judge or take shots at me, I'll never let you seize control

Play your game you better walk away cause your integrity don't mean shit
Crawl on me you fucking parasite, but I'm gonna take you out

Label me, that's fine, I'll be somebody else (Nothing in front of me but holes ahead)
Lie about my life, have a story to tell (Lights went down, was on the edge and I fell)
Oh you're so insightful, let me remind you to twist and break me, should make you worried (Long way to go and you're right there)
Two-faced liar, don't try and know me, deceit brings fire, makes sure you can't breathe (Pick at pieces of my body below)

I never bothered with all the rumors, too much garbage (all the same)
(I know my destination)
I'll stand right here, come on you falsehood deceitful liar (There's no shame)
Don't ever take my side, I know you're never right, I'll justify the means (Nothing's what it seems)
I'll stand around and fight, but there's no point tonight, been chained to this machine

Trashed and scattered again, I'm feelin' so low
You waste your breath while fuckin' with me, my blood is so cold
My destination always is known, I'll find my way there
but Goddamn Imposter are you out of your mind?

I walk down these roads alone and now you're seen here
My feelings that I'm having towards you are perfectly clear (I control this ride)
My devils appetite is tonight and now I'm alright
But you Goddamn Motherfuckers always wasting my time

Don' try and get the best of me (No one can help but your own self)
City makes my body ache (Lonely, don't try and prey on me)
I feel your world dying, no more use in tryin'
And my body's trashed and low, but to you I'll never show myself or what's inside

And you've seen it all before and that makes me hate you more, I'll never join your side

2009-05-08T21:07:00.004+08:00

I cannot believe that you are my brother.
I really can't. We are like so freaking different.
Don't you care about your family anymore?
Don't ya? You think mom is unreasonable?
You are the unreasonable one, fucktard.
Gosh. I have no idea what's wrong with you?
Jeez. You really piss me off. Sighs.
I don't know what the hell is wrong with you.
You don't want to talk to mom? What?
Because you think that she is unfair?
She has given you her damn support all her life
and this is how you treat her? You asshole.
Gosh, sometimes it's difficult to accept you as my brother.
God. -.-" I don't know anymore. Gosh.

Syn's like drugs LOL. :D He is fugging awesome.
Ahhh, he cheers me up :D hahahas n____n
Anyways, thanks to Bobbi for the music website ^^ <3!

2009-05-06T21:04:00.002+08:00

(: they make me smile. their goofiness never ceases to amaze me (:
Hahahas. remember: if all else fails, a spoonful of jimmy is enough(:
yeah, well (: that's all (: don't want to blog much.
hahahas.

i might smile much, laugh at my stupidity, make fun of myself;
but deep inside i'm dying from the pain that you are causing me.
byebye

2009-05-03T20:39:00.005+08:00

I wonder what happened XD LOL Hahahas.
Obviously, =/ LOLOL I shall not say ;x Hahahas.
I love Syn's hair. It's like so awesome. :D

I love that smile of his :D hahahas.
It's so cheesy that it's adorable LAWLS.

you think you are hurt? you don't know.
sighs. i don't know what to say to you.
i really don't. it's like, i want to say something,
yet i'm lost for words, i don't know how to put it.
sighs. whatever.

2009-05-02T18:56:00.004+08:00

Syn's solo in Bat Country :D Hot ^^

And for the random picture of today:-

Aren't they cute :3 <33 LOL.
Matthew's like- O^O
Brian's like- :9 *yummy*

LAWLS <333 Cute ^^

i'm on the verge of giving up. really.
it's quite unlike who i am. i really love you.
really i do. but you'll never see it or understand it.
the only reason i'm giving up because it'll make you happy.
(: yeah, that's all. ilybylm. (: byebye.

2009-05-01T17:14:00.002+08:00

how could you? you're her son. my brother, my own flesh and blood.
yet you steal from your own fucking family? to give your girlfriend?
i'm fucking disappointed to you. you stupid little bastard.
you've hurt my mother, you should thank god that dad doesn't know.
you little bastard. you've just showed that you don't love mom anymore.
you chose your fucking girlfriend over your own family?
$7000 fucking dollars. that's fucking a lot in thai baht.
you want to borrow money, you can borrow from me you asshole.
i don't know how to look at you. if dad finds out, you are fucking dead.
don't get me wrong, i love you a lot brother, but i hate you for doing this to mom.
honestly, what's wrong with you? stop using money as the advantage.
use your fucking brains, god gave you brains, USE THEM. asshole.

2009-04-30T22:53:00.002+08:00

you'll never understand and see what i'm feeling.
i don't know what to do anymore.
i'm on the verge of giving up but...
that's not love. what i have for you.
i love you.

2009-04-30T20:02:00.004+08:00

Seize the Day (Live from the LBC) - Avenged Sevenfold

Wooohoo <3 Johnny starting the song off.
Most meaningful song in my opinion. (:
Byebye.

2009-04-29T21:25:00.003+08:00

Fiona came over todaaaay. LOL
I cooked for her some spaghetti :D
I think my cooking sucks.
I made her eat a lot LOL XD
I hope she lives :D LOL
It's that bad :3 LOL Hahaas.
Studied A Mathematics.
She kept stalling! :O LOL
Naughty naughty. I tell KEA :O
LOL. Hmmmm, Let's seee.
Nothing much to say.
Talked about some things. LOL.
We were talking about how things
were last time :D LOL Quite funny.
That's all folks :D Bye! <33

you'll never see how much i love you

2009-04-27T21:55:00.000+08:00

Ladies and Gentlemen! :D I present to you:
THE EPITOME OF HOTNESS AND SEX :D
LOL =x Hehehes :X

2009-04-27T21:25:00.003+08:00

Some yummies :D <33333

Jacoby <3 LOL

Syn! <3

Jaco :D

*points the the right of the picture*
Brian is so hot when he was a blond. =/
OH WAIT HE STILL IS :D

OMG <3 Cuteeee.

Wheeeee, Syn is smexy LOL XD

2009-04-26T19:58:00.002+08:00

Tiffie!:-
Don't care about Shawn! He is just a loser.
He is a total blidiot(Ting's word). Honestly.
He is just a jerk and he should just piss off.
He is breaking your heart for no damn reason.
You are not ugly or stupid.
You are gorgeous and extremely intelligent.
He is just trying to provoke you by saying these things.
He is just trying to strike you right in the heart.
Don't listen to him. Don't you dare.
Because as your best friend, I am telling you,
You are NOTHING like that. Like I said,
You are gorgeous and extremely intelligent.
So I guess, since he is breaking your heart,
Kea and Nate are gonna be breaking his neck :D.
I don't want to see you so sad. ): <3!
Cheer up, beautiful :D Love you tons :D Hahas.
I swear, when I visit you again, SHOW ME SHAWN.
I'll show him my freaking fists. Honestly. -.-"
I'm totally pissed off with what he said to you.
Really, he is not worth it. Really. He isn't.
Totally not worth all these heart aches.
He sucks BIG TIME, you know?
He'll probably be sucking on Kea's fists too.
Cheer up okay? You can always call me :D <3!
I love you millionsbillionstrillions! <3333!>

two words:
only you♥

2009-04-25T20:22:00.002+08:00

HAH! I'M IN GENESIS! WOOHOOO! :D
Stupid fucked up boys in Catechism,
trying to steal Debos and my spot for Catechist.
Fugtards~! :D They rarely come for religious classes! :O
They have the nerve to effing tell me to not become a catechist!
:O Fugtardddds! But anyways, I am in Genesis.
I hope those Primary Schoolers give those boys HELL.
XD Hahahas. I'm so freaken holy XD Hahhas.
Anyways, gonna post a video for somebody.
It's a good song by Good Charlotte (:

I love you <3! ^^

2009-04-25T12:52:00.003+08:00

Blue Eyes Blue- Eric Clapton

I thought that you'd be loving me.
I thought you were the one who'd stay forever.
But now forever's come and gone
And I'm still here alone.

'Cause you were only playing,
You were only playing with my heart.
I was never waiting,
I was never waiting for the tears to start.

It was you who put the clouds around me.
It was you who made the tears fall down.
It was you who broke my heart in pieces.
It was you, it was you who made my blue eyes blue.
Oh, I never should have trusted you.

I thought that I'd be all you need.
In your eyes I thought I saw my heaven.
And now my heavens gone away
And I'm out in the cold.

Cause you had me believing,
You had me believing in a lie.
Guess I couldn't see it,
I guess I couldn't see it till I saw goodbye.

It was you who put the clouds around me.
It was you who made the tears fall down.
It was you who broke my heart in pieces.
It was you, it was you who made my blue eyes blue.
Oh, I never should have trusted you.

Cause you were only playing,
You were only playing with my heart.
I was never waiting,
I was never waiting for the tears to start.

It was you who put the clouds around me.
It was you.

It was you who put the clouds around me.
It was you who made the tears fall down.
It was you who broke my heart in pieces.
It was you, it was you who made my blue eyes blue.
Oh, I never should have trusted you.

Oh, I never should have trusted you.
Oh, I never should have trusted you.
Oh, I never should have trusted you.

sighs;
it's so obvious that you like her.
~~i love you so much.~~ does that matter?
i care about you so much.
yet you just don't get it.
you just don't understand.
you never will i guess;
that's probably because,
when you look at me;
all you see is this hideous person;
some body you don't take seriously.
i guess, when i was the only one around;
you had no other choice but talk to me,
taking me for granted;
i'm so willing to pick you up yet...
you don't want me, you just needed somebody to talk to.
you want her. sighs. but;
what ever it is, i'm always here;
and i want you to hold on.
remember the song? Hold On,
remember the lyrics. okay?
i love you so much b. bye.

2009-04-24T23:14:00.001+08:00

i love you
sighs,
i feel crappy.
byebye. ♥

2009-04-23T19:00:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry Sheri;
I'm sorry Yi Ting;
I'm sorry Wan;
I'm sorry Deborah;
I'm sorry Fiona;
For making you guys wait like idiots.
I'm so sorry. But;
Thank you so much for being there for me.
I love you guys a lot. (: <3
Thank you so much. I can never pay back such kindness.
I love you.

2009-04-18T13:11:00.005+08:00

Sighs. I'm so sick and tired of things.
Really, I am. I don't know what to do.
Lawls. Went to the JG's Grand Finals.
Congratulations to my 2 best friends:
Ryan SmellGood for getting into the top 20.
And Sheri who also got into the top 20.
I don't want to tell you guys the exact rankings.
:D Hahahas.
CHIJ St Joseph's were the winners for Division 3.
Global Indian International were the winners for Division 2 :D
Really awesome debates between the 4 teams :D
Hahhaas. Hmmms. Went out after that.
Really had a lot of fun. Walked to the bus stop.
SmellGood, Sheri and I were like goofing off.
As usual. LOL. It was just for laughs XD.
The bus FINALLY came after like 20 minutes.
LOL. SmellGood and Sheri did magic tricks on the bus.
:D SmellGood fell onto this random guy when the bus came to a stop.
:D hahahhas. Funny yo. XD Was disturbing SmellGood a lot.
I purposely went close behind and stepped on his shoe.
So, he would have fell D: LOL hahahhas.
No hard feelings, yeah? XD Went to Jurong Point.
We were trying to find a place to eat. But..
We went into Action City 1st LOL. Cool stuff.
Had "dinner" at LJS at around 10.45? LOL.
We had tons of fun while eating.
The plastic knives in LJS are DANGEROUS.
They can cut through the plastics of those cup covers.
Kiddies, stay away LOL.
Ryan and I were making plastic straw hearts. LOL.
Then something really random started.
I took this knife and started stroking it against the edge of the cup.
Then Ryan started tapping the table. Hahahas!
MUSIC :D LOL. Then Wan started singing this Mandarin song.
LOL We were all laughing so hard. I couldn't breathe yo!
LOL. Then this random dude, he said something that made sense:
"Doesn't mean walk fast must take big steps."
Then he was shuffling his feet across the floor.
Then I burst out laughing like really loudly. It was cute XD hahaas.
Ryan and Sheri were like giving the "WtfRofl" face.
Then Ryan and Sheri were like "That's Good, That's Good."
LOL I was like, "He makes sense yo!"
The both of them thought that I was mad.
No wait, Yi Ting and Wan too. -.-" They thought I was mad too.
Then I was telling Ryan about this shopping trolley near us,
then I told him "you get inside and i'll push ya"
He was like "Set". But we didn't =/ School Uniforms. LOL.
Then I took my ear pieces from my bag.
Then Sheri was like "NOO! She's gonna listen to her emo music!!"
I was like giving her the "Wtfh" face.
I was actually keeping my ear pieces into my pouch damn it. LOL.
Once we left LJS, we were like really high. LOL. No need for drugs.
Hahahhas. Since Ryan and I had Crumplers, I told him to do something
really fucked up. LOLOL. XD
We shifted our bags to the front and started strolling.
Then Ting was like, "GAY PEOPLE!" Ryan and I were laughing like hell.
Hahhahas. We took the MRT, surprisingly there were many people.
The MRT was disgusting. Really. Ting and Wan were really disgusted.
This couple were like making out, then the guy reached into his bag.
I SWEAR TO THE HIGH HEAVENS, I thought he was gonna pull
a condom out and have sex with his girlfriend. I SWEAR.
But he didn't. But the 5 of us still moved away.
LOL But there wasn't much a difference, because...
The next carriage, there was this other couple who were quite cozy too.
LOL. I kinda emo-ed out. Thinking about shit stuff. LOL.
Plugged my earpieces in and listened to awesome emo songs <3~!
Anyways bye. Don't want to continue. Lawls.

TIFF :D Thanks for the shout out :D
i love you tons :D thanks loads ^^
i'm trying to cheer up (; hahahas.
thanks thanks. you cheer up too okay?
please? Kea will sort him out :D LOL.
I'm kidding. I don't wanna boost his ego.
LAWLS. I love you Tiff <3

Ting<3 don't worry okay? I'm there. I'm here. :D LOL
I love you a lot. I mean, maybe she has her own reasons.
and like she said, it might be for the better.
cheer up okay? please don't be sad anymore ):
take care of yourself. okay?
i love you Ting maak*
*it means a lot/much in thai. :D

sighs, if my friends can love me the way i am.
why can't you? is it so difficult?
is it because you want to look good if i go out with you?
it's probably it isn't it? it's about looks.
nothing much i can do about. sorry.

2009-04-16T22:10:00.002+08:00

=

Done by Deborah :D <3 Yay! Thanks ^^

Next one is by me =/ Was bored. LOL.
It's some stupid emo crap. LOLOL.
Ahhh wells. Bye.

sighs, i'll let you live your life.
we are just best friends. (:
i think that's good enough.
byebye ily. (:

2009-04-15T21:46:00.001+08:00

You know what? Just have fun with your life.
I really don't want to stop you anymore.
It hurts me to say this. I love you too much.
I've been holding you back. Since you like her.
Go ahead and have fun. Because I know.
I'm never good enough for anybody.
That's all.

2009-04-15T19:57:00.002+08:00

Hello people. Haven't blogged for a few days.
Lawls. Yeah. I feel like how I was feeling last year.
Sighs. Just plain emo. That's all.
My good friend, *ahem* names shall not be mentioned,
he said that I were to tell the guy I like face-to-face,
he'll treat me seriously. Right now, I doubt it.
No matter how I tell it to you, you'll never treat me seriously.
No matter what I do, how much I try, it'll never be enough.
Looks are EVERYTHING, aren't they? (:
It's the truth. Whatever. I'm just so lost okay?
I don't know what to say to you.

Anyways, thanks SmellGood for that advice,
but, I don't think I will do it. LOL. (:

there's a fine line between love and like;
and i know, i love you to the point that it hurts.
even though, as much as i want to be with you;
i don't want it. i will never want it.
that's because i don't want to hurt you;
"knuckles hurting, heart is breaking"

2009-04-11T18:06:00.003+08:00

Write the names of 21 friends you can think off the top of your head, And then answer the questions. Say you’re guessing if you don’t know, but at least guess on all of them. Once you are done, all these 21 people ~~has to do it too.~~ can choose to do it. (for those w/ blogs)

1. Sheri

2. Wan

3. Jessie

4. LeonKor

5. Brian

6. Bobbi

7. Hatori

8. Fiona

9. Melissa

10. Meow

11. Shierly

12. Ryan

13. Kea

14. Trina

15. Tracy

16. Dayna

17. Alicia

18. Kim Koh

19. Michelle

20. Andy

21. Hui Wen

How do you meet 7? (Hatori)

Through Kea.

What would you do if you and 15 never meet? (Tracy)

I will be able to shift a seat in front. LOL She sits in front of me in class.

What would you do if 21 and 1 dated? (Hui Wen and Sheri)

Funneeh. LOL Both are girls.

Have you seen 17 cry? (Alicia)

Don't want to tell you. >.>

Would 4 and 16 make a good couple? (LeonKor and Dayna)

Uhh, -.-" They don't know each other.

Do you think 11 is attractive? (Shierly)

What do you think the "S" in her name stands for? It stands for SEXY :D

What's 2 favourite colour? (Wan)

I'm so dead. Erm, let's go with Blue :D Sorry Wan ):**

When was the last time you talked to 9? (Melissa)

Yesterday :D

What language does 8 speak? (Fiona)

ENGLISH :D

Who is 13 going out with? (Kea)

Pffft, *points to 8* LOL

What age is 16? (Dayna)

Becoming 15 soon :D

Would you ever date 3? (Jessie)

>.> She'll whack me ):

Where does 18 live? (Kim Koh)

Simei

What is the best thing about 14? (Trina)

She's my sexy girlfriend ^^

What would you like to tell 10 right now? (Meow)

Meow~ :D LOL

What is the best thing about 20? (Andy)

Don't know. Smart? I guess. LOL

Have you ever kissed 2? (Wan)

No. I can't even drink from the same cup as her. ._."

What's the best memory you have for 5? (Brian)

When we quarreled in MSWeios LOL

When's the next time you're going to see 4? (Leon)
Donnoh! LOL Soon, I hope :D

How is 7 different from 6? (Hattie and Bobbi)

Personality difference. HUGE difference LOL.

Is 2 pretty? (Wan)

Yes! Of course! :D

What was your first impression on 15? (Tracy)

Eeee, so cute *-* LOL

How did you meet 3? (Jessie)

Through Fiona :D

Is 1 your best friend? (Sheri)

YES! :D Hahahas! :D <3

Do you hate 12? (Ryan)

What's there to hate? It's SmellGood, he's a real riot XD LOL Bestie:D

Have you seen 18 in the last month? (Kim Koh)

I see her everyday :D <3!

Have you been to 5's house? (Brian)

No invitation how to go -.-" LOL

When's the next time you'll see 10? (Meow)

On Monday?

Are you close to 14? (Trina)

-.-" My girlfriend. Need I elaborate?

Have you been to the movies with 4? (LeonKor)

Nope ): Sadly! D:

Have you gotten in trouble with 8? (Fiona)
No

Would you give 19 a hug? (Michelle)

Yeap :D

When have you lied to 3? (Jessie)

No.

Is 11 good at socializing? (Shierly)

Friendliest little cookie XD

Do you know a secret about 8? (Fiona)

She's in love with ME :D LOL Kidding! -.-" I don't exploit people's secrets.

Describe the relationship between 12 and 18. (Ryan and Kim Koh)

Sarcastic and insulting -.-"

What's the best thing about your friendship with 9? (Melissa)

She gots good drawings >;3 LOL We always have something to talk about :D

Whats the worst thing about 6? (Bobbi)

There's nothing bad about her to begin with -.-"

Have you ever had a crush on 13? (Kea)

LOL. Ahem. Nope. :D Not sexy enough XD

How long have you known 2? (Wan)

3 years.

Does 11 have a bf/gf? (Shierly)

ME! :D LOL kidding -.-"

Have you ever wanted to punch 1 in the face? (Sheri)

No, but I would punch whoever that hurts her (:

Has 21 met your mother? (Hui Wen)

Fortunately, no. (:

How did you meet 10? (Meow)

She's my junior <3!>

Did you ever accidentally physically hurt 3? (Jessie)

I'll never touch her -.-"

Do you live near to 7? (Hattie)
Nope LOL

What's 8 favourite food? (Fiona)

Uhs, it starts with a K and ends with an A :D

What kind of car does 1 have? (Sheri)

Her dad has a car. Is that counted? -.-"

Have you ever travelled anywhere with 10? (Meow)

To Simei? LOL -.-"

If you gave 14 $100, what would 14 spend it on? (Trina)
She'll marry me LOL -.-" Kidding. She'll buy whatver she wanna, DUH. -.-"

PS: Trina is not my REAL Girlfriend. -.-"
Therefore we are not lesbian. -.-" LOL
Just to let you people know LOL -.-"

2009-04-10T22:37:00.002+08:00

This post is dedicated to my LeonKor :D <3!
Happy Birthday korkor :D
Sorry for forgetting it this morning =/
And it's quite late for this blog post. Sorry! ):
Well, I know things have been rough for you,
but cheer up okay? I'm always here :D <3!
Hahahas! Thank you so much for being there for me.
:D It's been 1 year! :D We've known each other for a year.
And you've helped me a lot. :D Like a REAL big brother.
:D hahahas. Thank you so much.
I owe you two presents kor =/
Sorry ): Hmmmm, hope to go out with you soon.
Don't stress yourself too much.
You know like rubber band? Eventually, it'll burst.
Be careful okay? Take care of yourself. :D
Erm. I am not sure what to blog about.
=/ Thanks for being the best kor ^^
Happy Birthday once again. :D take care.
<3you! :D

2009-04-08T19:45:00.004+08:00

Wheeee :D I'm feeling random so yeah. =/
I love them! :D Hahahahas! :D But I've got my favorite. :D
LOL :D Of course. :D I'm just really bored.
And I've wanted to post a picture of them.
So yeaaah! :D Ahahahas.
Had CCA today :D Played Scrabble in CCA.
Had 1 and a half rounds of it.
The 1st round was like:-
Deborah;
Yi Ting;
Trina and
ME :D LOL! Yeah.
It was fun. :D The half round was like:-
Sheri;
Deborah and
ME :D Hah! :D I got high.
Sheri and Deborah asked each other whether I drank something.
NO! ): I was just high because... I have no idea why.
LOL. Sheri thought that somebody SMSed me -.-"
Idiot D: LOL! Hahahahas. :D Had funnnnn<3!
Tomorrow needa go church =/ LOL =/
*sighs* Oh well. LOL Friday, NO SCHOOL :D LOL
-.-" [Wow, amazing] Lawls. -.-" Yeah well.
:D Ending my post with 2 pictures :D

SynEffingGates<3!

A nice friendly one :D LOL -.-"
Jimmy sometimes scares me =/
[FYI: Jimmy is right at the back]
:D Bye! :D A7x is the love :D LOL

hope you made the correct decision rmk,
you better hope M is fine. i have no comments.
that's all, but, just hope that...
you don't regret what have you done.
it's not that i don't support you but...
did you think about it thoroughly?
did you think it through that it might hurt M?
i'm just wondering, you know that i'm your bestie.
and M too, and i don't want anybody hurt.
i know it's true, that either party will get hurt.
it's inevitable. but you know M,
it's painful to see her like this. M is like an awesome girl.
i'm not saying R isn't. but. yeah.
i guess, it's not what I or T or J or M or B wants.
it's what you want. so, i couldn't have held you back.
maybe things are better this way, my friend.
take care. bye (:

2009-04-05T14:39:00.004+08:00

Reinstalling AuditionSEA -.-"
Lawls. I'm THAT BORED. :D
I can't even remember my character's name.
Lawls. :D This is going to take a long time.
And I'm gonna suck in the game BADLY.
Lawls! :D Okays bye!

UPDATE! I have no idea why I can't reinstall it.
:D Okay BYE! :D LOL Anyways;
Changed my blog skin :D Woohooo <3! Bye!

seize the day or;
die regretting.

2009-03-24T22:42:00.001+08:00

you know what? since it's wrong to be concern about you.
forget it. i really have nothing to say.
and it is the truth, you didn't talk to me.
thank you very much. and it hurts when you say those shits to me.
i am sorry. but yeah. i am sorry that i love you. happy?
yeah. great. bye.

2009-03-24T21:53:00.000+08:00

Seize the Day- Avenged Sevenfold

Seize the day, or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to Ache over

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
These streets we travelled on will undergo our same lost past

I found you here, now please just stay for a while
I can move on with you around
I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever?
I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one Picture)

Seize the day, or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to Ache over

Newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live In
No longer needed here so where do we go?
Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of Death?
But girl, what if there is no eternal life?

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one Picture)

Seize the day, or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty, and cold without you here, too many people to Ache over

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna Die alone without you here,
Please tell me what we have is real

So, what if I never hold you, yeah, or kiss your lips again?
Whoah, so I never want to leave you, and the memories of Us to see
I beg don't leave me

Seize the day, or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty, and cold without you here, too many people to Ache over

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day [x2 then Continues in the background]

I stand here dreaming alone
Falling away from me, no chance to get back home [x2]

2009-03-17T22:13:00.001+08:00

BROTHER I LOVE YOUUUUUUU <33 <33 <33

Take care of yourself wherever you go!

ilyk

LOL! Sorry for the super short post!

Sorry kimmy xD

2009-03-14T10:30:00.003+08:00

My brother I'm gonna miss you a lot when you go back to France. Won't be seeing you for quite some time I guess :( Take care bro. Lulz :p

-Brian

2009-03-13T23:28:00.003+08:00

Thank you Yi Ting,
Thank you Sheri,
Thank you Wan,
Thank you Meow,
Thank you Debos,
Thank you Kim Koh,
Thank you Nicole Marie,
Thank you Smellgood.
:DDDDDDDDDD
Great times. LAWLS XDDDDDDD
Like at the hawker centre,
we had so much fun! :D
It is really awesome! :D
We were laughing our heads off.
I proposed to Sheri in the playground.
GET JEALOUS RYAN SMELLGOOD!
:P LAWLS That was so lame -.-"
I tried to piggy bag Meow but but ):
I couldn't. I'm such a weakling. ):
I scraped my knee! D:! Damn. ):
LAWLS. It isn't Meow's fault,
if you guys are thinking meanly D:
:D anyways, love you Meow :D
LAWLS On the playground's ground (-.-")
The pattern was of this man.
Then it was really sick :D
Because I did something sick :D
Lawls. I realized that my shoes was like,
extremely dirty and like,
my stockings were EXTREMELY dirty too ):
): ): ): LAWLS XDDDDDDDDDDD
I tried to call him but my phone hanged on me ):
So I started throwing it around :D
And Smellgood tried catching my phone LAWLS!
The last drop sent my phone like flying everywhere.
LAWLS! -__________- But it didn't revive my phone.
): ): ): ): I really wanted to talk to him! ):
LAWLS! D: Oh well ): I hope he comes online :D
Hahahahahas. :D Okay that's all.
It was an extremely awesome day. I enjoyed it greatly.
:D Hahahahahas, BYE! :D <3!

love hurts, but sometimes it's a good hurt (:

2009-03-12T22:11:00.004+08:00

Why must you SMS me all of a sudden?
It only brought bad memories.
Pain, sadness and tears.
I did love you, all right?
But, it just hurts.
I feel so f*cked up now.
I didn't hurt that much at that point of time.
But now, it feels like a million tonnes of bricks.
I have no idea why. I'm sorry.

2009-03-11T20:14:00.003+08:00

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY! :D I had the best day.
WOOOHOOO! YEAH! My N79 battery has been confiscated :D I'm so happy.
Great, bye. I still can be contacted, so no worries. Bye!

2009-03-10T21:59:00.002+08:00

I really don't want you to find out.
You might think that I've used you.
Which is not true. I really love you.
I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. But.
I'm so scared that you will be angry.
I'm going to leave it be here.
ilyb. byebye ^^"

2009-02-28T20:36:00.000+08:00

My tears run down like razorblades
And no, I'm not the one to blame
It's you, or is it me?
And all the words we never say
Come out and now we're all ashamed
And there's no sense in playing games
When you've done all you can do

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
But it's over

I lose myself in all these fights
I lose my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry
It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life I led
But I won't let it die, but I won't let it die

It's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

It's not over, it's not over, it's never over
Unless you let it take you
It's not over, it's not over, it's not over
Unless you let it break you
It's not over

Small update with lyrics. Sorry.
I've no freaking mood.

2009-02-14T20:40:00.001+08:00

i'm happy! i am genuinely happy! :D
and there's a reason to it :P XD hahahas. ^^
okay, bye :D

iloveyousomuchkw

2009-02-13T19:05:00.002+08:00

I feel like yelling at you so much. I feel like telling you off.
But, I don't have the heart to. Because you are my best friend.
I don't know. I really don't know. You have friends who are
more important than me now. It is petty. It is childish.
But, to me, it's very hurtful and painful. I don't want to think about it.
*sighs* Whatever. I don't know what to do. I don't want to care so much.
That's all for today. Bye.

2009-02-10T21:32:00.002+08:00

fucking memories keep flashing back. it sickens me.
memories from last year. everything. i remember so vividly.
like it only just happened yesterday. i can still feel the tears.
i can still feel the pain. studying after the events for lasts year's eoys was not fun.
it sucks. and i don't know why i feel like this. it's petty.
it's stupid. and i feel really fucked up. i felt so fucking betrayed.
i felt so used. you made me feel so ugly. but. it doesn't matter.
i want to live for this moment. i want to live the present, not the fucking pasts.
i want to push them away. i want to forget them. but i just fucking can't.
it hurts so badly. but it's so difficult to get rid of these feelings.
i'm really going crazy. i don't know what to do. i wish he would talk to me.
imissyousomuchbylm): oh wells. i guess.

these people will never understand the things i do.
like loving you, holding onto you. yeah. to them,
it's ridiculous. but, i think it's worthwhile.

2009-02-08T13:10:00.002+08:00

HELLO! :D Hah! I haven't updated for a long time.
Hmmmm. Sad thing is that, I am letting my right
ear hole close back. ): My effort of widening it till
12 ear sticks could fit in T.T Hahhahahas. Because...
Duckiie was disgusted and asked me not to continue.
LOL! But oh well :D I don't mind :D hahahahas. ^^
I haven't done my homework :D I have tons. :D
LOL! I am too lazy to do homework :D hahahahas.
Okay. Deborah wanted an update, here's the update :D
Okay bye! :D:D:D:D:D hahahahhas.

it's harder than you know. ♥

2009-02-03T22:07:00.009+08:00

HELLO EARTHLINGS!

I'm Gemini's Mei
BROWNIES!!!
Valentine is coming soon!!!
Not only that but super things are coming yup?
AND YOU KEA
(Not going to say your full name)
Please I beg you do not get yourself in the hospital again...
It's like the THIRD or FOURTH time this year
So please stay out of trouble
Let's go see RABBITS
My little bunny heh... Lapin
Lapin stew hehe
Or I'll make you in to Lapin stew
I want you to come here healthy and happy
Not in bandages you hear?
Or else no VALENTINE'S PRESENT for you
And I will get angry
(I sound like a child)
I already know what to get for you
Gemini has been busy baking
HER FAMOUS
Valentine Brownies!!!
Getting mine soon
I'm blogging for fun and to find me some stuff to do
Get me distracted
Brownies are given to everyone she LOVES
(okay that sounds biased)
Oh well
Hehe
Gemini is a FABULOUS baker
Friends out there get ready to smell Brownies
Counting down
I still have VALENTINE shopping
I have not done it yet
Because I'm busy...
Oh well....

From: Raven Mei へいけしおり :D

2009-02-01T19:46:00.002+08:00

Meh, I have this little poster thing that says:-

"Work like you don't need the money.
Love like you have never been hurt before.
Dance like no body is watching.
Sing like no body is listening.
And, Live like it's Heaven on Earth."

I love it a lot :D hahahahahas. ^^ It's really meaningful.
Hmmm yeahs. :D Okay byebyebyebyebyebyebyebye! :D

2009-02-01T14:56:00.003+08:00

YOU! YOU! YOU!
Don't drink so much! D:
Damn it! D: Stop it uhs!
But but but :D You call uhs.
Did you think I was angry? D:
I was saddd D: rawr! D:
:P hahahahahahahahs! XDXD
Lol. -.-" High. XD LOLOLOL!
Because. I finally heard your voice.
:D Hahahahhahahas. -.-"
I am such a loser/retard/idiot. :D
LOL! Hahahahhahas. XDXDXD
-____________________-"
Anyways. That's all. For now. :D
Bye bye bye bye :D:D

2009-01-30T23:34:00.001+08:00

RAAAAAAH! I can't studyyy T_T
Wait. I never could -.-
I'm stupid :D LOL! hahahahas. ^^
Just that. I keep thinking of you! D:
Damn it. T_T I really hope our
friendship isn't in pieces ): *sighs*
I miss you D: okay bye! :D

2009-01-27T21:47:00.002+08:00

I did a lot, I know you say
I've got to get away.
"The world is not yours for the taking"
Is all you ever say.
I know I'm not the best for you,
But promise that you'll stay.
'Cause if I watch you go,
You'll see me wasting,
you'll see me wasted away.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

RAWR! Those are lyrics. Not my own words.
The first paragraph is from Like A Knife by Secondhand Serenade :D
And the second paragraph is from Tonight by FM Static :D
Wheeee! :D byebye <33333!

i love you ^^

2009-01-26T01:56:00.002+08:00

you know what? thank you so very much for using me.
i really have nothing to say to you. honestly.
if this is it, then i don't freaking care anymore.
i was freaking there for you when you had no body.
now, you know what? forget it. if you have any problems,
take it to SOME ONE ELSE. don't freaking play with my
emotions. you really upset me. whatever.
chinese new year? not quite. do what you freaking want.
i don't give a damn. i used to. i used to care about you a lot.
now, piss off. i despise you. you used me just to make yourself
feel better, feel wanted. you know what? you have wasted my time.
you have wasted my energy. i have never said this to anybody before.
you are the first freaking person to do this kind of thing to me.
you know what? don't talk to me. don't SMS me or MSN me.
because, i don't want to talk to you. it hurts me deeply to do this.
but i think, honestly, you have used me. good luck with your girlfriend.
i have officially given up on you. i disown you.

2009-01-24T22:57:00.002+08:00

New skin! :D YAY! it's moreeeee.
Colourful -________________-"
LOL! And less emo, I guess XD Hahahas.
I like it. Even though, there are some PINK.
>< LOL! It's awesome. :P Anyways.
Yeaaaaaaah. CNY WEEKEND <3333
SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP
LOLS! SLAAAAAAAAAACCCCCCCCCKKKKKK.
LOL! hahahahhahahas. Whatever.
I am such a loser XD Lololololol. Anyways.
I updated all right? Don't scold me :P
Because this is a rubbish update LOL!!!
Hahahhaas. byebye <3333. byebye ^^
Oh, I hope I pass my two tests ^^ :D LAWLS.

i love you :D

2009-01-16T19:26:00.001+08:00

T_____________________T
i can't go out. noooooo! lawls.
nevermind, june then ):
that's when i see you i guess D:
okay byebye <3333>

2009-01-15T17:33:00.003+08:00

and baby you are all that i want. :D
tomorrow you are having school :P
good luck:D lawls. <333 love you.
i wanna ask you out during the chinese new year break
;x but not just the two of us -.-" ;x not just yet :D
i will ask you soon. i really want to see you :D:D:D
hahahahahas. i love you so much ><><
so yeaaaaaah. byeeeee